What do you feel like you "need"?

[Mint Floss]

Don't know how to explain, but, besides death, is there's anything that you think could save you- no matter how unlikely?

Just sort of out of morbid curiosity. Personally I have no idea for myself.

 

[itsgone2]

I need to start over. I don't see any way out from my current point. Just awful what Ive done.

 

[underairpressure]

Relief. Above all else, I need relief.

 

[monetpompo]

korean corndog

 

[Lamentice]

Peace, rest.

 

[Busridin'26]

Rest. Real rest. Community. Physical real tangible support.

Thats unconditional bc honestly I still barly understand the effect all the horrific long lasting abuse I've experienced has had on me. Feels like everytjme I figure it out ive fucked up a possible support.


I honestly dunno what I need anymore bc I've lost all hope that it exists but ig the point is smthin where I don't needa unconsciously & consciously shrink the impact kf abuse/trauma to access support and things that will really help me. Systems that have the time to take to support. Not rush. Not shame. Not abandoned.

Not be treated like too much for being abused. Have space to be a victim as much as ive been forced to be a survivor.

Have slace to just be withput lives pressures so I can reasonably figure out wtf I even wanna do.

(I dunno about writing this out. Might delete later but this is the truth atm so...)

 

[persepexa]

I need to start over. I don't see any way out from my current point. Just awful what Ive done.

Exact same I was just about to comment this. I need a Time Machine honestly. Nothing short of erasing my past and erasing what I did will help. I'm really sorry you're in a similar position to me. I hope you're okay.

 

[think.like]

I need to be healthy. I've had type 1 diabeties for a few years now and it's killing me from the inside out. I had potential to be someone but my blood sugars are so bad that I probably have brain damage now. Not only that I developed an eating disorder because of it and it took my only passions - dancing and singing. If there would be a cure I could live again but the only one there is isn' avaiable for everyone because it's experimental and they wouldn't accept anyone who's suicidal :/

 

[MyLifeisHell]

Nothing rooted in reality could save me

So I just need "peace"

 

[ScaredCutter]

seeing my boyfriend or a shit ton of money

 

[NoHorizon]

Physical health problems to be cured. Past trauma to be erased. A job that isn't killing me and a partner to love. All of those are completely out of reach for my present position, though. Just a pipe dream.

 

[itsgone2]

Exact same I was just about to comment this. I need a Time Machine honestly. Nothing short of erasing my past and erasing what I did will help. I'm really sorry you're in a similar position to me. I hope you're okay.

I appreciate the kinds words. I am definitely not ok. I wish I had bought and used a gun this weekend. Such a coward

 

[Lost Impact]

Money. Financial security. It could solve so many of my problems.

 

[lakefish]

rest and less crowd