There isn't anything I feel like doing anymore. Everything's lost its sparkle and I don't enjoy the things I used to love doing. I loved art, photography, writing but I haven't done any of these for years and years. I was one of those kids who supposedly had potential and a bright future. Well, that all crashed and burned and now I'm just a total failure. But honestly, now just being with my dogs (and cats) and taking care of them helps a lot. They give me a sense of purpose and they're good company. I don't have to explain to them what's wrong with me and I don't have to be upset that they they don't understand. At night, sometimes I just put on whatever show I've already seen a million times and with that on, I read a book or waste time looking at crap on social media and online shopping websites. But I don't buy anything because money is a problem. Seriously though, my pets are a big help and source of comfort. If i have a rare burst of energy and the weather's not fucking hot, I'll take the dogs for a hike and enjoy the wind and view from the hilltop. I think I would have checked out a long time ago if I didn't have my pets to love and take care of. I hope you find something that you enjoy doing.
Another thing that helps me feel better is sunlight. If you are always indoors with curtains drawn, please open your curtains and let the sunshine in. If you feel up to it and the weather where you live is pleasant, please go outside and feel the sun on your skin. I swear this makes a difference. When I am indoors too much and just lying in bed, I start spiraling down into this rabbit hole of mindfuckery and it's hard to find the energy to dig myself out of that. So I always try to be conscious of that happening, and get myself outdoors and into the sun before I get worse. I love the feeling of the sun on my skin. If you do too, maybe you can try going for a walk. Listen to music you like while you do.