what do you do when nothing is enjoyable?

[nails]

everything is so dull and bleak.
i don't enjoy video games anymore, i don't enjoy comics or manga, i don't even enjoy music. i listen to music, read, or watch something when i have free time at work, but i only do that because staring at the floor for an hour looks strange. the music i listen to pisses me off or makes me sad, and i'm just not interested in whatever i end up reading or watching.
when i'm on my own, i just scroll through random articles on my phone, stare at the ceiling, or self harm if i have the time. i don't have anyone to talk to, anyway.

there's no way to cope, i don't enjoy anything and nothing makes me feel better. there are no distractions becuase i don't care about anything.
talking to people is always boring. i'm not interested in anything, so i have nothing to talk about anymore.

i think i'll try to force myself to be interested in some things again. catch me writing essays about books, maybe.

this just dampens every aspect of my life. i already know the solution: examine why i've lost interest in everything, fix it, move on; but it's nothing that i can fix.

 

[Hollowman]

I sleep as much as I can.

 

[lilies.in.heaven]

I also struggle with the anhedonia

I'm currently addicted to cannabis and it does give me some relief (in the sense where I can feel some pleasure from activities), but the price is feeling much less the effects (tolerance) and experiencing withdrawal if I dont smoke (addiction)

Using this forum is basically the only thing that really feels genuine while sober. Reading people talking about what I experience is very very helpful for me

 

[divinemistress36]

Doomscroll

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I do... nothing. I have to work, chores, general useless running around. That's all just my body because it hasn't fully died yet. Inside, I'm just waiting.

 

[nails]

I do... nothing. I have to work, chores, general useless running around. That's all just my body because it hasn't fully died yet. Inside, I'm just waiting.

yeah, our situations are pretty much identical. my life is just work and chores. the rest of my time is spent doing nothing because everything just makes me feel worse. it's such a sad existence.

i'm wishing you the best.

 

[jatty]

Doomscroll. Been trying to get into lucid dreaming more. The only thing that makes me happy are fleeting obsessions or buying things.
At least i still like eating, though

 

[Higurashi415]

if I can sleep, I sleep. else I either smoke weed or drink alcohol

 

[nails]

Doomscroll. Been trying to get into lucid dreaming more. The only thing that makes me happy are fleeting obsessions or buying things.
At least i still like eating, though

buying random shit was my coping mechanism of choice up until this month, i don't feel anything from it anymore. probably for the best, though. i was constantly dropping hundreds on comic books... it was a really pathetic time and i definitely would've ended up broke, lol.
lucid dreaming seems really interesting, but i've never looked into it. i'm glad you can still enjoy some things, i hope things get better for you.

 

[freakypossum]

I also struggle with the anhedonia

I'm currently addicted to cannabis and it does give me some relief (in the sense where I can feel some pleasure from activities), but the price is feeling much less the effects (tolerance) and experiencing withdrawal if I dont smoke (addiction)

Using this forum is basically the only thing that really feels genuine while sober. Reading people talking about what I experience is very very helpful for me

I've been on prescribed medical cannabis. Tolerance builds up quickly so I'm trying to take a break of few days every month and switch strains from time to time, though I only get prescribed 15g a month so I'd assume it depends how much and often you use it.
I'm currently on a break and have no idea what to do with myself

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand, I always find it so torturous to suffer in this dreadful, deeply undesirable and painful existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again, I'll always see it as an abomination to exist, to me existence is just the most terrible mistake and all I can do is suffer as after all I'm so cruelly denied the option to cease existing in peace, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to never exist ever again to escape from all future suffering in this existence that is just waiting to die, I'd just never wish to be conscious of anything at all.

 

[fallingbehind]

Daydream and eat

 

[Lfsn_kivacs-rei]

I'm prescribed medicinal cannabis because I can't eat without it due to my body malfunctioning, and cooking/eating used to be my joy in life. Between losing that and a few other things due to medical crisis… I use cannabis, I plan ctb, I read here, and I sleep. Work is excruciating in more ways than one. Family time is torture. My friends are at a distance right now which is for the best. Nothing brings joy anymore, I can't remember the last time I genuinely felt good. Maybe 2018 sometime.