Discussion What do you do to handle...

[Margimet]

What do you do to handle the suffering daily until you get ctb?

I have dissociation, memory lapses, I don't feel my body and I live on automatic.

 

[Antisad]

I think about a certain few extra-special friends back home until I leave college for winter break. I think of them every morning and fight to see them before I ctb and my (personal) need to write letters and provide closure to some of my friends and family.

 

[NitriteAnatomy]

As stupid as it seems, I've been playing through whatever games I've got an interest in playing, while I run through everything in my head.

 

[NickStanfield]

Great question - I've got extreme anxiety and insomnia... I drug myself to sleep most nights, but it takes time to get down and I wake up around 4am with panic attacks (stupid brain). But I'm a writer so I've created an entire universe in my mind. It's a world based off of a novel I wrote and I've extended it now for over a year. Hours and hours... Likely hundreds - maybe more - of plot creation, universe building, character creation, relationships and more. It's my happy place and it's where I go when I can't take anymore here. It's where I'll go when I leave (ctb) as well....

 

[Done at Fifty]

I make weird goals. Like exercising or dieting to the extreme. Goals that require thinking, like writing or learning something new, are too much for me. Its hard for me to feel motivated about anything.

 

[Conker]

Sometimes I just keep my eyelids closed in a dark room for the entire day & night, even when I'm not sleeping.. Fucking despise just being awake at times. Other than that video games help somewhat.

 

[Fragile]

Great question - I've got extreme anxiety and insomnia... I drug myself to sleep most nights, but it takes time to get down and I wake up around 4am with panic attacks (stupid brain). But I'm a writer so I've created an entire universe in my mind. It's a world based off of a novel I wrote and I've extended it now for over a year. Hours and hours... Likely hundreds - maybe more - of plot creation, universe building, character creation, relationships and more. It's my happy place and it's where I go when I can't take anymore here. It's where I'll go when I leave (ctb) as well....

my god, i could have written this word for word.

i do the same, over the years i've just created a different world in my mind, from the rules of the universe to the relationships of the characters, this way my mind stops thinking about reality and wanders into a better place where all my escapist fantasies are real, one that doesn't exist but is enough to take me away from my real suffering and struggle, if that makes sense.

if only i could put it into cohesive words and beautiful pictures so it could become reality in a graphic novel, sadly my skills are very lacking and i don't have the time to start now, this world will die with me one day.

 

[zherhk]

I'm trying to cancel hope from my system and just kill it when start developing, or at least to let it burn alone by not investing in extra thoughts. Same with being positive which makes me plan strategies that for the matter of my situation can't bring me anywhere. So I'm trying to avoid the umpteenth letdown.