What could turn things out for you?

[Aliali1992]

What turn of events could happen to save you from CTB?...i guees most of you thought about it...is it something that could be in your hands but very hard and need much luck to happen...or you need a whole new body/soul/mind?

 

[waterbottleman]

Getting rich I.E $1 million dollars or more.

I already know what I'd do. I'd invest all that money in dividend growth stocks and safe bonds aiming for a dividend yield of around 3.5 percent or so. That would give me a passive annual cash flow of 35k a year that would grow every year. I would then go to Southeast Asia to retire.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Money wouldn't solve my problem but could make my life better. I'd ctb anyway if I were rich.

 

[braketimez]

What turn of events could happen to save you from CTB?...i guees most of you thought about it...is it something that could be in your hands but very hard and need much luck to happen...or you need a whole new body/soul/mind?

Figuring out what is causing my physical fatigue.

 

[Smashingairwaves]

A shit ton of money to sort my health problems out

 

[disabledandhopeless]

I need to recover from my disabilities and turn back time

 

[Kumachan]

yeah if i could go back in time

 

[braketimez]

A shit ton of money to sort my health problems out

Me too

 

[Mr2005]

It won't make any sense to anyone if I say.

 

[TAW122]

To keep things simple: rid myself of Aspergers and become NT to be able to navigate and live life in society, relate and be accepted by people around me, be able to pursue my hobby the way I wish to (overcoming the chronic and enduring performance anxiety and loss of focus problem), and then for society to legalize voluntary euthanasia - which of course isn't likely to happen at least in this coming years or even in my lifetime (alternatively if I can immigrate to a country that has the most liberal and advanced/mature policy on voluntary euthanasia (hint: The Netherlands, Belgium, for instance), but those seem very unattainable for legal, logistical, and practical reasons.). Those are just some starters but still I'd want to die in the long term because health will worsen over the years and things will eventually get old and stale.

 

[alexK]

Getting out of this country. Living free with basic human rights. Cutting off everyone I know. Never see any of them ever again or hear their voices.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

I find it interesting how everything goes for money, Money would be nice, but it won't take away the years of pain and torture, it won't take away the memories, it won't take away the nightmares, and it won't change whats around me. Money for me wouldn't be the answer, I just find it so interesting that many say it would be

 

[Isittimetogonola]

I don't think much could save me now. Somehow I always knew this would be my fate (Self fulfilling prophecy? ). After so many years of fighting to be happy, I just do not see that happening, much less hoping. I am working to complete my unfinished business. Soon that will be done and then it will be time. The world does not need or want me, time to try another.

 

[blivogade]

A miracle.

 

[sadgirl2002]

I want him to come back to me.

 

[Shinbu]

Nothing can.

 

[Nem]

A time machine is all I would need, plain and simple. Oh, and to have stayed away from meds
Peace/hugs

 

[bpdandme]

Being extremely rich and financially independent - I would travel, get good therapy and move away from my home town.

 

[braketimez]

I find it interesting how everything goes for money, Money would be nice, but it won't take away the years of pain and torture, it won't take away the memories, it won't take away the nightmares, and it won't change whats around me. Money for me wouldn't be the answer, I just find it so interesting that many say it would be

Everyone's situation is different.
For me, my pain is caused by physiological issues, so having money would grant me direct access to resources to solve my problem.

 

[highlyvolatile]

I dont know. I cant turn back time or bring people back to life, so nothing.

 

[terry_a_davis]

May be a decent job.

 

[CatchTheBus]

If BPD could be cured, then yeah.
I can't act right, I have no self identity, I can't make decisions, my emotions shift drastically and I can't control them. I'm selfish and manipulative and an all around horrible person. I fully believe people in my life will feel relief when I'm gone. I've been such a huge burden.

 

[Living sucks]

A time machine is all I would need, plain and simple. Oh, and to have stayed away from meds
Peace/hugs

Same here. A time machine and avoid meds and my life would be in tact

 

[RayoSinSol]

Something to give me a genuine sense of meaning, that isn't some form of coercion or a lie.

People that I don't have to wear a mask around.

More realistically, an asteroid on course for Earth.

I'd be the most positive, exuberant person for those last few hours, between sporadic panic attacks and running from rioters.

If BPD could be cured, then yeah.
I can't act right, I have no self identity, I can't make decisions, my emotions shift drastically and I can't control them. I'm selfish and manipulative and an all around horrible person. I fully believe people in my life will feel relief when I'm gone. I've been such a huge burden.

You are a human and I respect you.

Getting out of this country. Living free with basic human rights. Cutting off everyone I know. Never see any of them ever again or hear their voices.

Yaaaaaasss

 

[Absurdity]

If BPD could be cured, then yeah.
I can't act right, I have no self identity, I can't make decisions, my emotions shift drastically and I can't control them. I'm selfish and manipulative and an all around horrible person. I fully believe people in my life will feel relief when I'm gone. I've been such a huge burden.

Even if you are a burden and some part of them will be relieved when you're gone, I believe that another part of them can see past your disorder and see the 'real' you, trapped by all these problems.
I've met several people with BPD during my long stays in psych hospitals, and I think I could be good friends with them, despite these obstacles. Especially when they're aware of them, like you are.

I mainly reply because just recently I've read that TMS can help with BPD (magnetic brain stimulation, very safe and basically no side effects compared to drugs). And not just with comorbid depression, but also with impulsivity, mood changes etc. There are ongoing studies about this.
E.g. see here: http://pbsciences.org/en/ArticlesDetail.aspx?ID=460 or https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/30633728, both from 2019

I will try TMS as a last chance to fix my extreme fatigue, hoping that maybe my depression is still the cause. The good thing is, after the 4 weeks of treatment, it either worked or it didn't. I don't have to endure 10 weeks of drug side effects just to realize it doesn't change anything..

 

[the end is near]

Money would help a lot, it wouldn't change everything but it'd improve my life on many levels.

 

[Donk]

a time machine so i didnt take benzo or ADs in the first place

 

[taylor321]

Money wouldn't solve my problem but could make my life better. I'd ctb anyway if I were rich.

ya same here, if i had money id still be all alone

 

[CatchTheBus]

Even if you are a burden and some part of them will be relieved when you're gone, I believe that another part of them can see past your disorder and see the 'real' you, trapped by all these problems.
I've met several people with BPD during my long stays in psych hospitals, and I think I could be good friends with them, despite these obstacles. Especially when they're aware of them, like you are.

I mainly reply because just recently I've read that TMS can help with BPD (magnetic brain stimulation, very safe and basically no side effects compared to drugs). And not just with comorbid depression, but also with impulsivity, mood changes etc. There are ongoing studies about this.
E.g. see here: http://pbsciences.org/en/ArticlesDetail.aspx?ID=460 or https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/30633728, both from 2019

I will try TMS as a last chance to fix my extreme fatigue, hoping that maybe my depression is still the cause. The good thing is, after the 4 weeks of treatment, it either worked or it didn't. I don't have to endure 10 weeks of drug side effects just to realize it doesn't change anything..

Thank you for that, I've never heard of that before. I've had a lot of friends (from my IOP days) that did ECT and ended up with massive problems from it (memory loss, and worsening symptoms). I'll look into TMS...it sounds like it's not as intense as ECT, not to mention 4 weeks is a super short amount of time, which is encouraging.

 

[DeathNoot]

Money probably. Would take too much exposition to explain in detail, but no one can judge me for not working if I have a million+ dollars lol. Tho it's possible I'll find misery in that too. In which case it would be getting rid of my personality disorder. Money = coping well. Good mental health = happy, I guess. But money would give me comfort and in comfort I could find time to work on my mental health... So maybe money = happy, after all.