What brings you joy pleasure enjoyment or excitement?

[BrainSplatter]

As I'm here eating this garlic bread I'm like ok this tastes pretty good brings me some level of enjoyment. I'm suicidal and I thought I'd experience no joy pleasure enjoyment excitement in anything but that isn't true for me the world does give me some joy but not enough to make me stay the pain outweighs it all. It's the risky activities I indulge in that bring the most like drug use partying raving and unsafe sex it makes me feel somewhat alive but in reality the world feels pretty bland normal things like birthdays or milestones don't really matter to me even if I won a fuck ton of money which I have through gambling it wasn't enough nothings ever enough for me it's just a short term high or distraction. I also think the reason that drugs drinking partying and stuff brings me some excitement is because it can easily kill me, I go really hard sometimes and knowing that could happen does bring me comfort and happiness. I still I need to make sure everything's in order first before I CTB, so I'm seeing my solicitor to write my will in December and then everything with my child and the adoption that might take time with court proceedings so next year I'll CTB. I guess these are just distractions for me until that time comes around.

 

[whywere]

For me, it is this:

1) Seeing other people with smiles on their faces, it ALWAYS makes my day!

2) Traveling, LOVE meeting new cultures and trying new foods.

3) I collect wristwatches and that makes me very happy.

In general, thou, it is helping ALL the human race as much as I possibly can to move forward to the stars.

Walter

 

[ScholarOfDespair]

Nothing brings me joy anymore.

 

[rustcohle4life]

Sleeping.

 

[BrainSplatter]

Sleeping.

How did I forget that lol yeah same here

 

[kunikuzushi]

Food, sex. Just the base pleasures. I'm living like an animal. Nothing brings me joy.

 

[BrainSplatter]

I forgot to add researching suicide methods and watching videos of others achieving death by suicide. It brings me some joy and happiness because I wish to do the same

 

[sanctionme93]

Sex Sexting and porn, when I tried no fap I literally become depressed and so numb and hollow made me realize I use sex to push those feelings away and I really don't even know what to do in life now because nothing else gives me that dopamine rush.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

nothing except me visualizing drinking my SN and or shooting myself

And visualizing the absolute beauty of eternal Non-existence

 

[Arvayn]

I love studying death, it is a subject I am very passionate about. It's also very thrilling due to its taboo nature, and my fascination with it is something I am very open about, because I like people's uncomfortable reactions to my knowledge on it. As a matter of fact, the biggest reason I am on this forum is not to CTB but just to get to interact with and read about people that have a positive and almost savior-like relationship with death, because that is extremely rare and I think it's educational and interesting to see that side of things too.

I guess, I just like being unnerving and creepy (not in a sexual way). It gives me a rush of power.

 

[ifihadnever]

The only joy I've had in nearly 7 years is my pets . Been there through thick and thin. I owe them everything.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Imagining Donald Trump, JD Vance, Elon Musk, and RFK Jr being slowly tortured to death in the most agonizing ways possible.

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

None of these, in fact I hate all of them besides playing video games. What brings me pleasure is coming to terms with me being me, I had always hated the notion of being someone else. So just being me, helping animals or people in the little ways I can, is the only thing left even if it's fleeting, I'm already dead and just running on borrowed time, I kinda came to terms with it. Sleeping is not really pleasurable as it's more of a lack of feeling.

Now if you want to know what pisses me off, the list wouldn't end.

 

[DeniedPeace]

You forgot listening to music (unless it's included in entertainment/media consumption), but for me music and CTB is really all that's left.
Libido down to 0 (cumulative effects of depression and SSRIs).
Going to sleep dreaming of never waking up.
Finding N somehow.

 

[BrainSplatter]

You forgot listening to music (unless it's included in entertainment/media consumption), but for me music and CTB is really all that's left.
Libido down to 0 (cumulative effects of depression and SSRIs).
Going to sleep dreaming of never waking up.
Finding N somehow.

Hey yeah it was included within that I listen to music non stop daily. I listen to a lot of music about suicide or self harm and it brings me some enjoyment because its relatable

 

[FuneralCry]

No, nothing as to me existence is the most dreadful, torturous abomination that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence, I just find it so deeply undesirable to exist in every way possible and I'd never wish to suffer in this painful existence rather all I want is some peace, I just want to be permanently unconscious with all gone and forgotten about, no matter what I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer.

 

[Wishingforadream]

I spend most of my time reading, however it's barely for enjoyment anymore mainly just for distraction.

Sad music is sometimes enjoyable as well.

 

[rustcohle4life]

Imagining Donald Trump, JD Vance, Elon Musk, and RFK Jr being slowly tortured to death in the most agonizing ways possible.

Bro let his intrusive thoughts win

 

[mourningyesterday]

i can't do pretty much any of those things anymore. for me going to bed but intermittent insomnia still there to ruin even that

 

[darksouls]

nothing, I am already done

 

[kopebaldy]

Sleep

 

[mjolnir]

Skydiving, rope jumping, hiking – these are things that used to excite me, but I haven't done them in a while.

 

[nolifer23]

Reading Liu Cixin

 

[Persona3]

Food, sex. Just the base pleasures. I'm living like an animal. Nothing brings me joy.

Bit off topic lol I hate eating SO much. If I never had to eat again, I wouldn't want to eat ever again. I hated it when I was working out, and even in the phases when I let it slide

For the first time in my life, I actually enjoy sleeping. And I used to curse sleep because I wished I never had to sleep aw how patethic lol

 

[fromange]

For me, it is this:

1) Seeing other people with smiles on their faces, it ALWAYS makes my day!

2) Traveling, LOVE meeting new cultures and trying new foods.

3) I collect wristwatches and that makes me very happy.

In general, thou, it is helping ALL the human race as much as I possibly can to move forward to the stars.

Walter

You're a good person.

 

[dendritedandruff]

the few things left that bring me some genuine joy are music and my closest loved ones, I'm really grateful for it but even then it feels really muted. i hate having a defective brain

 

[unhappilyundead]

Reading manga and eating food, that's about all that's left that is pleasurable for me.

 

[whywere]

nothing, I am already done

YOU bring me joy each and every day knowing that I have such a wonderful person like you as an awesome friend.

You are a heartwarming and caring soul, and I am so VERY happy to have you as family on here.

Walter

 

[boredandoverboard]

I only get borrowed joy, pleasure, excitement. My feelings in general.

I borrow a kind of joy from my dreams, being someone not in my circumstances, only half of the joy since this always bring me anguish while dreaming, I know fully well that these are merely dreams. Recently I've just dreamt of climbing Mt. Everest, or a replica of it without the harsh conditions–what a trek that was, my body ached and seemingly lived it when I woke up.

I also share half of joy of the characters written in pages. I reckon I live more in pages and in my mind than I do in real life, where I am nothing, and because I am nothing, I can imagine being everything.

 

[Gonk]

As a derranged megalomaniac with hurt ego, I am; imagining scenarios where I seize the total power of a state, a nation, a group to enact my "reforms" by making people "forcefully volunteer" to my vision... /j

Jokes aside, well, I enjoy thinking, creating fictional scenarios, states and nations at least in my mind.