what breaks you more?

[Bad Karma]

knowing those closest to you will mourn you, or knowing they'd breathe easier once you're gone? i guess it doesn't really matter in the end, but i cant help thinking about it.

 

[Reindropz]

I know I would be mourned very much. There are people that need me too, who I would hurt when I die. But that's overshadowed by the fact that one, I'm replaceable and two, even from a logical pov it would benefit them more if I didn't exist. So yeah, the second

 

[Hiro Uchiha]

I know I would be mourned very much. There are people that need me too, who I would hurt when I die. But that's overshadowed by the fact that one, I'm replaceable and two, even from a logical pov it would benefit them more if I didn't exist. So yeah, the second

this

 

[Forever Sleep]

I don't think it will make all that much difference to people if/ when I CTB (if I can hold on till my Dad goes first.) I'm fairly independent/ estranged. The thought will be sad for some. They'll get a meagre amount of inheritance. It's more a hope I suppose that it won't affect those left too badly.

 

[darksouls]

since the death of my female dog in 2020, I have been alone, I have no social contacts

 

[R-7]

Knowing that they'll mourn me.

It's sad from a lot of points of view but knowing that they'll recover from my loss does bring me some comfort.

 

[F@#$]

There's nobody close to me.

 

[passivethought121]

Depends. I have one close friend who only has me. I'll feel guilt up until my brain stops working. I have other friends that have many friends, and they'll breathe easier.

 

[xoirse]

i think what breaks me more is knowing they'd probably breathe easier once i'm gone. i've seen the way they get tense around me, like they're walking on glass. maybe my silence would finally give them peace, maybe that's the only thing i have left to offer.

 

[chudeatte]

knowing that theyd mourn after I die yet they never cared about me when I needed them to care the most is what hurts me

 

[Grog]

knowing those closest to you will mourn you, or knowing they'd breathe easier once you're gone? i guess it doesn't really matter in the end, but i cant help thinking about it.

I wouldn't breathe easier at all. I'd be a wreck for a long, long time if you were gone…

 

[monetpompo]

i think that part of the reason i want to die so badly is that i know my prolonged suicidal ideation just means people will feel better once i stop telling them how depressed i am. they won't need to worry about me anymore once i'm finally dead. it'll all stop mattering. i just can't stop thinking about how people might be waiting for it to happen, like i'm a stupid child that'll eventually walk into traffic instead of an adult dealing with bad thoughts.

 

[Forveleth]

Those closest to me will mourn but they are the reason I am here. I am more sad about how I will affect the one friend I still have.

 

[eternalpace]

The three family members who are alive will mourn me... but two are up there in age and will not have to think about my death for too long. I was unsuccessful at a suicide attempt ten years ago... and everybody knows that things have not gotten any better... so this time it probably won't come as the biggest of surprises to anyone.