What are your triggers?

[Pancake]

Once in a while, something happens that triggers the overwhelming dread and anxiety. It makes me wish I could end it right then and there. Today, there were many, and for the first time in a very long while the stomach curling frustration made me cry. I don't like feeling this way, I want it to stop.

If I may ask, what are your triggers? How do you deal with them?

 

[stoopid]

How do you deal with them?

I kill myself when my sn arrives.

 

[Seven Threads]

I think for me, it's offending or upsetting people. I don't deal with a lot of anxiety in a general sense, my issue is more depression. But if I say or do the wrong thing and someone ends up being upset or angry with me, that can be absolutely paralyzing. There are occasions where I've put my foot in my mouth, so to speak, and felt so sick and nauseous inside that it totally shut down my ability to interact with the entire community they belonged to. And I'm not even exaggerating either: I was heavily involved in a discord server that revolved around mental health support until an altercation there left me feeling like I was going to vomit every time I so much as saw the other person speaking in one of the rooms.

I honestly can't recall when this started, but I know it's been that way for a long time. It's one of the reasons I'm so careful about what I say and how I say it; I go to great lengths to make sure that I'm elucidation exactly what I mean in the clearest manner possible so as to reduce the odds of it blowing up in my face.

 

[outrider567]

Once in a while, something happens that triggers the overwhelming dread and anxiety. It makes me wish I could end it right then and there. Today, there were many, and for the first time in a very long while the stomach curling frustration made me cry. I don't like feeling this way, I want it to stop.

If I may ask, what are your triggers? How do you deal with them?

After her death, too many triggers to mention

 

[Walpurgisnacht]

If I may ask, what are your triggers? How do you deal with them?

There are so many I don't even know where to start.
I deal with them using drugs. used sh when I was a kid.

I guess there are a few extremely major ones in comparison, worst I can think right now would be trains zipping by me; instant panic attack.

 

[BasqueClown]

1. Any memories of my failed relationship. She raped me and was torturing years on the peak of the pandemic (Between october 2020 until july 2021). Yes, violence in lesbian relationships happen.
2. My molly abstinence. I admit I'm a drug addict, but dropping it without proper treatment it's killing me.
3. My dad who desinherit me and treat me like a drug addict, lost soul and crazy girl, all by influence of my stepmom.
4. My incapacity of believe in myself to returning to a normal life as a teacher (At any level).

 

[tuyu]

Being made feel like I'm not good enough in my own eyes and standards despite working hard for it hits me the hardest. I think it comes from my ego and sense of entitlement (if others can do it why can't you?), makes me feel like I'm some sort of failed specimen and don't deserve to live.

for eg, flunking a test / interview that I studied hard for but everyone around me does well somehow, not being able to understand solutions, failing at my relationships

my psychologist made me do some test and apparently I apply this same lens onto everyone else. I easily get frustrated when people seem to lack common sense……

if it's my fault, I will go into a cycle of self blame and reflection. Depending on how "severe" the mistake is, I may inflict self punishment to remind myself not to make that mistake again. Mistakes in this world are often too costly and most people are not that forgiving ……….

if someone else is being not good enough, I'll be harsh to them and try to remind them that Google exists

 

[Mimi_]

living

 

[Scacie]

Looking into the mirror. I have severe DPDR so every time I stare into the mirror I don't recognize the object that stares back at all. It never fails to send me spiraling, and yet I keep having this perverse desire to look into mirrors. I just want to find even a single facial feature I can call mine, I guess