I'm addicted to more.
More of everything :: drugs // love // sex // music [ esp. vinyl ] // firearms // bodybuilding //
tattoos & botox [ not plastic surgery ; but once you've had a prince Albert, piercing can be a problem!! ]
art & design - owning it [ esp. Tretchikoff; Haring; Warhol; Tom; Hi; Nagel, Zoltan & art deco ] redbubble //
my new thing is billboard rock concert posters,
& I would stalk Michael Stipe if geographically possible ( I already do on social media )
tarot decks & ouija boards [ collectable occult paraphernalia ] // rosaries // Tibetan vajras etc //
media [ internet // movies // series // porn ] // coffee // gin & whiskey // 12 step programs // sushi // maybe s.s.org //
risky behavior [ refer to a above ]
♤ Addiction :: The compulsion to continually engage in an activity or behavior despite the negative impact on the person's ability to remain mentally and/or physically healthy and functional in the home and community [ time // obsessive behavior without considering consequences < 2 personal health of physical / mental / financial well-being >
also if it makes you deceptive ( but that vintage JPG necklace was on sale, really! // how could I perform if I was doing heroin? - u get the idea. ) Tragic. ♡
Ps:: ...this list was compiled while having lunch with my ex-sponsor ( I was fired for non-compliance :: I'm such a fuck-up ) he rattled off this list in such awful speed, I'm feeling sickly ,, he reckons even my locum vetinary / husbandry work has the payoff of being needed respected & rewarded. For all the wrong reasons... there's a reason I chose to work with 'dumb' animals vs people (lost my med. practice to addiction) I can stay away from hurting people, the way I am.
my denial is so fkn hardcore & debilitating.
I've denied myself true happiness // whatever they call fulfillment... so while it may sound 'cool' to read, it isn't.
Its a litany of melancholy & isolation. I'm a danger to myself & others.
Tx for the share, I've learnt a lot