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- Feb 25, 2021
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List the things that makes you feel embarrassed ?
I will make a list too, I dont even know where to start..
I am sure that there are more stuff....
I will make a list too, I dont even know where to start..
- I am 38, and I receive financial help from my father due to disability.
- I lost most of my income sources (clients), due to a mental, and physical health breakdown in 2017.
- I cannot support a woman financially, not possible, not with all of my medical bills, this even while having an income which is more than what the average person earns, in my country.
- I drive a shitty car, hard to explain when you earned so much money back in the day.
- I live in a two bedroom apartment, renting.
- I wasted a lot of hard earned money due to obsessive compulsive disorder, buying things of the same kind. Repeatedly visiting the same places in other countries, totally consumed by obsessions. It is not as bad anymore, I think I eventually learned from the devastating consequences.
- I lost all of my friends. The lack of friends would be hard to explain to any newcomers in my life. At one stage (2007-2013) I had about six really good friends.
- I am also self conscious about the fact that I appear normal to the general public, maybe even well off. This is one of the biggest problems in my life, appearing normal to the outside world, and I think when they (women) find out what my real position is in life, they will simply feel sorry for me, and leave. I also want to emphasize that my intention is to never give people false impressions about me. What is the point of doing that, they will find out eventually.
I try my best to convey to people about my situation at the soonest. I am not pretentious.
- Wanting to end my life is also embarrassing I guess, how do you explain the CTB equipment in your living space...
I am sure that there are more stuff....
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