SuicideM4n
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- Aug 9, 2021
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TV is on for background noise. I'm on here in massive pain from surgeries yesterday. Debating if I should just suffer in pain or take a percocet. I just decided and took the pill. I will save the rest just in case...
I'm watching a stream too about Trisha Paytas. Not the same one, right?Watching a stream and picking at my toenails, drinking diet mountain dew
Neat. I've not heard much of her since her fallout with Ethan from H3 podcastI'm watching a stream too about Trisha Paytas. Not the same one, right?
Never heard of him. I'll have to look him up. Haha yeah, I'm watching some lady (her yt username is MYSTERIOUS) and she's analyzing the night that Trisha drove her car into Jason Nash's house and some of the lies she told about that incident. Good times. And YES, girl. She totally blew up her spot on Frenemies. Shame. I really liked that podcast and totally would have bought merch.Neat. I've not heard much of her since her fallout with Ethan from H3 podcast
No I've been watching HasanAbi watching master chef
I don't know why, but seeing drunk Freddy made me laugh. It's so stupid it's funny. Also made me think of this:I spent almost the whole night looking at the ceiling, I don't feel like doing my hobbies anymore due to anhedonia, and I don't go out to have fun because I don't have friends and no one ever invites me to anythingView attachment 83809
What surgeries? I just had open heart surgery (6 vessel CABG) on Sunday.
No problem, I totally understand privacy issues. Hope you get relief from the Percs and are back in good health soon.I'd say but they're very specific invasive procedures grouped into one visit and I'm not comfortable being searchable. Not on your level of invasive. I hope you recover quickly though.
No problem, I totally understand privacy issues. Hope you get relief from the Percs and are back in good health soon.
I've got a little Oxycodone left over from a previous surgery and trying to decide whether to take that before bed, as it will make my sleep apnea worse in combination with my Valium. Fuck it, what have I got to lose, right? Most of my life is pain now anyway. But I did just have a glimmer of hope just now a few minutes ago. Maybe I can hold onto that just long enough to make it to morning. Or if God blesses me, to die peacefully in my sleep, which is all I have ever wanted, to just slip away from the world peacefully without pain. That's my prayer for tonight, as it has been for months now. The clean death, the clean getaway, without fear or worry or pain. Just to close my eyes and let go and be with God forever at peace.
Well, it helped take the edge off a little... but still plenty of pain. Thanks for the kind wishes.
I wish it were simple like that. Even before my situation that has lead me here, I've wished the same. Just going to bed to sleep and not wake up. I wish you peaceful sleep. And more hope if you wake up.
I don't mean to be judgmental over her issues, but I wonder how much her status/money/fame shields her from any real consequences for her unstable behavior? If she was an average person she would be so screwed.I'm watching some lady (her yt username is MYSTERIOUS) and she's analyzing the night that Trisha drove her car into Jason Nash's house and some of the lies she told about that incident. Good times. And YES, girl. She totally blew up her spot on Frenemies. Shame. I really liked that podcast and totally would have bought merch.