What are you all doing on the last few days before you ctb?

[vanillabug333]

I am in a PHP program right now, and I'm not even bothering to go tomorrow or Friday. What's even the point, you know? I'm just gonna chill with my cat and watch all of my favorite shows one last time. Probably get some good foods too. Why not? I'm ctb for sure on Saturday if all goes well, and I think it will. Might as well make my last few days as relaxing as possible, especially after all the hell I've been through.

 

[Uncounted1846]

I skipped the last day of IOP, my "graduation" because I knew it was utter BS and I was no where near ready for sessions to end. My depression has gotten worse since leaving IOP, not better.

I haven't thought about the few days before CTB. My date is for the end of May. I'll probably do the same thing as I do now, sleep the days away and stay up all night feeling like shit.

 

[bugbugbug]

I honestly just want to live as "normally" as possible, which for me is like @Uncounted1846 sleeping all day and being miserable at night. In the last few days, I hope to get some good food and hopefully finish IT and Mockingjay while engaging in activities I already promised to commit to. I honestly just want to be seen as "normal" as possible in the last few days, but I am debating on making videos to send to those I love on a scheduled message so maybe I'll do that as well.

 

[SummerTrip]

Hopefully I find someone I can chill with for the last days before CTB. Just talking about everything and nothing, watching stupid shit, drinking, smoking, laughing, doing whatever we want and finally ending it in peace.

 

[vanillabug333]

Hopefully I find someone I can chill with for the last days before CTB. Just talking about everything and nothing, watching stupid shit, drinking, smoking, laughing, doing whatever we want and finally ending it in peace.

That honestly sounds pretty pleasant ngl

 

[SummerTrip]

That honestly sounds pretty pleasant ngl

It does. I have everything ready. Methadone for two or more, multiple antiemetics, slow and short acting benzos for general mood and ending everything, and a safe space where we wouldn't be found for 24 hours for sure. I just want someone to share the experience with.
Don't want to go out on a whimper dying alone in my bed. Want to have a nice time with someone who understands the struggle and pain. The last party of our lives…

 

[socksnsandles]

nothing differently.

 

[inconclusivesorbet]

Hopefully I find someone I can chill with for the last days before CTB. Just talking about everything and nothing, watching stupid shit, drinking, smoking, laughing, doing whatever we want and finally ending it in peace.

How old are you? This sounds like a fun plan and pretty much how I'd want to go out too

 

[SummerTrip]

How old are you? This sounds like a fun plan and pretty much how I'd want to go out too

I'm 28 but I'm not from States or Europe