What are the pettiest reasons you want to CTB?

[OzymandiAsh]

We all have our more serious reasons, traumas and whatever for wanting to CTB. But what are your pettiest reasons?

For me:
* I do not want to stay alive only for my teeth to decay and have to go to dental appointments / spend a fortune.
* Life just feels like a series of meaningless chores that I hate. Cut your nails. Shop for groceries. etc.

 

[sweetdrowning]

Same with the dental thing. I spent all of my adolescence and young adult life not giving a shit about my body. I don't want to deal with whatever diseases I'm going to get because of that. I am about to lose my health insurance, too, and I just don't feel like dealing with that.

 

[mrjam]

To put all the blame on one person i really dislike cause i think it would be funny

 

[amor.dor]

I'm bored with life. Life is just repetition for me, it's like eating chocolate every day but only the filling changes, that's what life is like for me.
No matter how well I live, cancer, or a serious illness, or an accident will come.

 

[leloyon]

* Life just feels like a series of meaningless chores that I hate. Cut your nails. Shop for groceries. etc.

To put all the blame on one person i really dislike cause i think it would be funny

 

[Reishi]

I hate waking up ... I like sleeping toooooo much lol

Sadly I have insomnia and the whole cycle is annoying...

 

[violetforever]

i can't stand when people i hate come to visit. or worse when they stay over. i don't even like the people i live with so having more people i hate in the house makes me go insane. that kind of goes together with feeling like ctb because i rarely get to experience complete silence in my home. i can't live with all this noise.

 

[FuneralCry]

No, there's nothing petty about wanting to be permanently free from this dreadful, torturous existence that just causes endless amounts of torture, cruelty, harm and suffering, for me non-existence is just all that's positive, only in non-existence will I be at peace from the terrible, cruel burden of existence that was so tragically imposed. To be tortured in this existence just to face the agony of old age would be the most dreadful punishment, existence will always be a mistake to me and it's one that just tortures existing beings and causes them to suffer so unnecessarily, for me ceasing to exist would be the positive solution to escape from the evil and torture of existing where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer, all I've ever wished for is to erase this existence.

 

[Ligottian]

Everyday shit going wrong in some way. I wont elaborate.

 

[mybodyhurts]

I daydream about killing myself in front of all of the insurance agents that have made it possible for me to receive health care and them having to live with themselves knowing they are murderers

 

[Xi-Xi]

Fuck taxes
Fuck taxes

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

I don't have a petty reason, I don't offer life that much power over me too think that my decisions could be labeled as petty. To me they matter, to me they are the difference of me living or dying. That's all there is to it and that's all that matters, I could give less of a fuck about what others think about them.

 

[Xi-Xi]

Fuck taxes

 

[ICantFixThis]

I think its not wanting to work anymore, like I go to work and suffer just to barely scrape by and it makes me mad. Of course there's deeper issues but that's my "fun" reason.

 

[fadedghost]

We all have our more serious reasons, traumas and whatever for wanting to CTB. But what are your pettiest reasons?

For me:
* I do not want to stay alive only for my teeth to decay and have to go to dental appointments / spend a fortune.
* Life just feels like a series of meaningless chores that I hate. Cut your nails. Shop for groceries. etc.

lol, i was going to say i don't think any of my reasons are petty, but tooth decay and dental expenses suck, and life feeling just like a bunch of chores is something i relate to so hard

 

[Happy Cat]

People on the internet make me want to die. I'm talking Pinterest, Twitter, Reddit, Instagram, and Tiktok. They're all bad especially Pinterest, Twitter, and Tiktok those users are toxic as hell and are just plain stupid

 

[NonEssential]

Maybe the fact that I keep on comparing myself to others and view most people as being better than me.

 

[violetforever]

People on the internet make me want to die. I'm talking Pinterest, Twitter, Reddit, Instagram, and Tiktok. They're all bad especially Pinterest, Twitter, and Tiktok those users are toxic as hell and are just plain stupid

i know exactly what u mean and ever since i deleted my social media i feel better not seeing all of that.

 

[miles-away]

I'm 23 and haven't been to college yet.

 

[Dawnfang11]

The part about the chores is so real.

Idk if it counts as petty, but I kinda just wanna know what it feels like.

I'm 23 and haven't been to college yet.

I'm older and started last year. We'll get there when we get there...

 

[TwistedNightmares]

I really want to make my ex-father feel like shit. He deserves it for abandoning me.

 

[Grimlock]

Because I am agonizingly weird.

 

[attackingvertical]

Dunno if this is petty so much as toxic but-
When I came out and told my parents I liked girls, they made a bunch if rules like: if I get a gf I can't bring her to family gatherings, and they won't come to my wedding if I marry a girl. I was in highschool at the time. My dad said to my mom "If she doesn't like the rules she can just go off herself, since it'll happen in a week or month or year anyways." I overheard him from upstairs.

So a petty reason would be to do it just so he feels bad about saying that. I did attempt once on father's day, but not intentionally.

 

[yumeko]

I regret not doing it sooner, and not doing it better. Now I'm exposed as suicidal.

I just don't like life. There are too many things I dislike, but if I had to pick some they would be:
- I'm a snowflake
- It feels exhausting, I wake up tired
- I don't want to let anyone else down

I have or used to have some friends and foes, I miss them but no longer have hatred towards the foes. Suicidal thoughts have been in my mind since forever but I feel bad leaving my mother.

I'd love to sail a boat offshore, chain myself with bricks and roll off. The bones will eventually fall apart and end up on the shore but that's a long time. Or maybe not if my body decompresses quick enough so the remains won't float.
I hate microplastic so I will need to go boating naked or wear all cottons.

If anything, wish you luck and happiness if you find my corpse. I'm no resentful ghost. ^^

I'm 23 and haven't been to college yet.

I went to college twice, dropped out of both.

Edit: Sorry, I derailed the thread. It's about pettiest reasons, so there was a time I cried all day because an online "friend" roleplayed as a hater to me. The noose was ready but unfortunately he dropped it timely.

 

[Carryline]

I do not want to work

 

[OzymandiAsh]

I regret not doing it sooner, and not doing it better. Now I'm exposed as suicidal.

I just don't like life. There are too many things I dislike, but if I had to pick some they would be:
- I'm a snowflake
- It feels exhausting, I wake up tired
- I don't want to let anyone else down

I have or used to have some friends and foes, I miss them but no longer have hatred towards the foes. Suicidal thoughts have been in my mind since forever but I feel bad leaving my mother.

I'd love to sail a boat offshore, chain myself with bricks and roll off. The bones will eventually fall apart and end up on the shore but that's a long time. Or maybe not if my body decompresses quick enough so the remains won't float.
I hate microplastic so I will need to go boating naked or wear all cottons.

If anything, wish you luck and happiness if you find my corpse. I'm no resentful ghost. ^^


I went to college twice, dropped out of both.

Welcome to the forum!

Thats another reason of mine you just reminded me of, microplastics, and other health icks/scares lol.

 

[Spite]

Pettiest reason? Probably the art I make hardly getting any recognition. I have dozens of reasons for wanting to CTB, most of them are serious reasons, but hardly anyone caring about my art would be the "least" reason for me wanting to CTB. It sucks when I put a lot of effort into my work only to get like two comments and then everyone forgets about it. Makes me feel defeated and worthless and I ask myself "what's the point?"

Edit: Also being ignored almost all the time in the two Discord servers with 100-ish users in them that I'm in. Just yesterday I teased a screenshot of some artwork I had made. Nobody reacted to it, nobody commented on it. Nothing. Nobody gives a shit.

 

[MAKE IT STOP!]

So I can scare my abusers. It's clear they have no remorse for how they treated me and would abuse me again if they had a chance to, so I want to inflict worse psychological damage on them than they did on me. I also want to make my former FP feel like shit for abandoning me, he deceived me into thinking he'd come back.

 

[Unlucky777]

I never have to work again.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm not even sure many reasons are that petty. I think what's more helpful is whether the problem is solvable. If we hate something so much that it makes us want to die to escape it- what can be done? Can we learn to not hate it quite so much? Can we avoid it?

I'm similar to you OP. I fear getting older and becoming ill. I don't think that's either a petty or unrealistic fear though.

I also hate the daily grind of existing. Of having to do repetitive chore after chore to support a life I don't enjoy and don't want. That doesn't feel petty either though- to me. It feels like a prison sentence for something I haven't done.

It may sound pathetic or lazy to say- I hate the laundry, gardening, washing up, tidying, cleaning, cooking, working. But- we can't realistically avoid those things.

I think the 'problem' with the suicidal person is- they are constantly considering the option to quit too. So, it's not really a case of accepting those things because they are a part of life- because we so strongly want to reject life!

As it is, I just end up neglecting all I can but that means- I'm in the vicious cycle of letting things build up till they're so bad that even a normal person would likely struggle. Plus- if we neglect ourselves and our environment enough, we start to encounter health issues. So, it's all varying degrees of bad. I still don't see that as petty though. It just makes life amost constantly difficult and unpleasant.