What are signs that it's time?

[Ambivalent1]

Is running out of coping distractions a sign?

 

[Zaphkiel]

It's more a signe of being depressed than suicidal i think

 

[silence of death]

it would definitely makes you want to do it more, but you can find ways to distract yourself, i'm sure, there's so many ways to numb ourself nowadays with internet
find a new game to play, join a discord, keep talking on SS, find a new forum, try to do some sport
wish you the best

i think the sign that it's time to go is when you have made the rationnal decision that is time, you have been thinking about it non stop for months, and you have multiple way to CTB

 

[kwho]

Is running out of coping distractions a sign?

Believing in signs now, are you? Hehehehehe


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About a year and a half ago a saw a dream - i was at a bus station, the bus was about to leave, but i did not get on. I did not know why i chose not to, because getting out of the place i was the only thing i desired.
I walked into a kind of waiting/luggage room and found about a dozen of people sitting on my packed suitcases there. All of those people were parts of my personality. They looked really forlorn and confused, sad about not getting on the bus (since they can only follow my lead and are too well-behaved and respectful to want to defy me). They asked me why didn't we get on the bus? For about a second i genuinely had no clue what to say to them, and then the answer came from my lips as if on its own - i am looking for the fire that can cross the worlds.

I still don't know what i meant exactly. But it's whitsun in a couple of days.

And the funny thing is, i didn't even know what CTB means at that time. I remember wondering - why bus station, i never travel by bus???

 

[leftdreaming]

You guys are getting signs? I've been looking for signs to live lmao

 

[Cryptonite]

I would say the sign could be the opposite. It is when you notice that you feel better than before. Feeling down (and especially angry) paralyzes you from doing anything. Yesterday I was suffering to the core, today I'm in a better state of mind and I feel much more suicidal. People who commit are often seen doing much better the days leading to their CTB. It is not a strict rule though.

 

[leavingsoon99]

One of them. For me, it was just getting clarity about my life. Where I am, where I was, what I wanted to get out of life, the chances of actually achieving some of it, and the reality of the world. All of that led me to, ultimately, make my decision. It comes from within.

 

[LastOrder]

i think its different for everyone, however i feel like its creeping up for me soon. i notice i fantasize about it, i have my method almost completely ready and besides pretty bad depression i have this calm sense of peace i havent felt in a while. only because i know this wont have to go on for years and years anymore. i dont have to stay strong

 

[FuneralCry]

Just having awareness of the way that existence is, is enough of a sign for me to know that suicide is the most preferable and logical option, I'm always wishing to be gone as in death there are no problems and suffering. Existence has unlimited potential for harm while death is the absence of all harm, and of course to die solves the true problem which is existence in itself.

Just knowing that existence is only a futile and replusive process of slowly dying where we are destined to suffer and decay makes the thought of non-existence sound so incredibly appealing to me, but of course the problem lies in the fact that we are cruelly denied a straightforward way to free ourselves from the harmful burden that is existence that we were so unfairly forced to endure.

 

[TAW122]

When you know you've lived long enough (or too long) in this sentient prison (called 'life'), suffered greatly, exhausted (just about) all options to solve whatever problems you tried to solve (but failed), and that you are likely going to suffer perpetually. Ultimately, it is an individuals personal decision as to when it is time as everyone's circumstances and predicaments are different.

 

[NoLightRemains]

Currently I feel the least depressed I have in years, but the suicidal thoughts still persist and grow stronger over time. For me it's a sign that this is what I really want, it's just a long process for me.

 

[Duochrome-Seahorse]

For me I know when it's time when:

1. Food tastes dull/not as excited to eat
2. Wearing my favorite clothes doesn't make me feel good/looking at myself feels painful
3. The feeling of "leaving everyone behind" doesn't make me feel bad enough to stop
4. Cry in public
5. Don't care on how I carry myself around strangers
6. Attempting to CBT in the morning
7. Hobbies feel like chores

But yeah I'd say the cope well running dry is one, that's been a problem for me for many years.

 

[charlotte_]

I can't tell what's a "sign" is supposed to be like exactly, since for some reasons it hasn't came to me yet. I don't think there are any signs to be exact. When you can't hold on anymore, then you just know it. But I supposed these kinds of things could come shortly before that decision: no hope and expectations in anything, extreme feeling of emptiness, lack of awarness about time, irritation at smallest things, and so on

 

[Bruces]

I also wonder this,I keep looking for signs that it's my time,a complete lack of enjoyment in life is a good sign I think