Post: (since the link doesn't work, post this into your address bar and search for it on google, it's the first result) longecity org/forum/topic/101525-how-do-i-eliminate-these-life-threatening-adhd-conditions-my-youth-is-being-wasted/
I posted this on some forum a while ago, and got generally bad advice from people (with an exception or two), especially on the suicide front. I initially was seeking perspective on my mental illness and extreme focusing issues, if my conditions were so severe, I would have to contact a neurologist. Didn't get much clarity: was told to continue therapy and psychiatrist visits, even though I explained that I was treatment-resistant and it wasn't helping; people diagnose me with Bipolar instead of just speculating, some guy even tells me to watch awkward rom-coms like "The 40 Year Old Virgin" and "Yes Man" and "do my best to relate without getting jealous", and also reminds me that I'm probably not highly intelligent (which is very inspiring...). Later in the thread you'll see me having an emotional breakdown from stress/hypomania (a temporary side-effect of the medication I was taking, which is essentially fuel to the fire), which explains my bizarre, overemotional posts. Some dude suggests I should commit burglary due to my extreme lack of resources. Then, towards the end, I say "heh, fukk it", and get all SanctionedSuicide-y; outline my suicide plan, which breeds some interesting replies.
Just curious to see what people here think of my story, how hopeless my case is. Feel free to pile on some suicide fuel: call me a horrible person (actually true), call me entitled, a brat, a misogynist (even though I, at the least, want to support feminism and women's rights) whatever you'd like.
In this horrible joke of a life, I haven't had anyone who has genuinely believed in me. I've been coddled by my parents, abused by teachers, and an afterthought by so-called friends and extended family members. I've fallen into a psychological trap: I've learned to pollute any atmosphere. Every good opportunity has been obliterated. I have at least 15 more years in prison to go - personally, I'd rather seek the death penalty.
"He who fights with monsters should be careful lest he thereby become a monster. And if thou gaze long into an abyss, the abyss will also gaze into thee."
I posted this on some forum a while ago, and got generally bad advice from people (with an exception or two), especially on the suicide front. I initially was seeking perspective on my mental illness and extreme focusing issues, if my conditions were so severe, I would have to contact a neurologist. Didn't get much clarity: was told to continue therapy and psychiatrist visits, even though I explained that I was treatment-resistant and it wasn't helping; people diagnose me with Bipolar instead of just speculating, some guy even tells me to watch awkward rom-coms like "The 40 Year Old Virgin" and "Yes Man" and "do my best to relate without getting jealous", and also reminds me that I'm probably not highly intelligent (which is very inspiring...). Later in the thread you'll see me having an emotional breakdown from stress/hypomania (a temporary side-effect of the medication I was taking, which is essentially fuel to the fire), which explains my bizarre, overemotional posts. Some dude suggests I should commit burglary due to my extreme lack of resources. Then, towards the end, I say "heh, fukk it", and get all SanctionedSuicide-y; outline my suicide plan, which breeds some interesting replies.
Just curious to see what people here think of my story, how hopeless my case is. Feel free to pile on some suicide fuel: call me a horrible person (actually true), call me entitled, a brat, a misogynist (even though I, at the least, want to support feminism and women's rights) whatever you'd like.
In this horrible joke of a life, I haven't had anyone who has genuinely believed in me. I've been coddled by my parents, abused by teachers, and an afterthought by so-called friends and extended family members. I've fallen into a psychological trap: I've learned to pollute any atmosphere. Every good opportunity has been obliterated. I have at least 15 more years in prison to go - personally, I'd rather seek the death penalty.
"He who fights with monsters should be careful lest he thereby become a monster. And if thou gaze long into an abyss, the abyss will also gaze into thee."
Last edited:
