Went to see my doctor

[SuicidalSymphonies]

As the title says, I saw my doctor today and he prescribed me on different medication. I honestly feel like I'm just going so he doesn't suspect something worse.

I do not like going but that's adulthood. I want to die. I don't want to keep being fed pills.. April can't come soon enough..

22 years old and suffering from chronic pain. Both parents sides are fucked with mental illness especially my dad's side. Asked my mum why they even had me and she turned it into me blaming her. Maybe I am. I don't know but if they had bad bloodlines, they never should have had me.

Just kill me, please. Something HAS to happen to kill me, right? I had my chance as a pedestrian hit by a car and I survived. IMAGINE THAT?! Everyone told me it's a sign I should still be here. Boones... Fuck off.

Sorry for rant..

 

[Haku]

Though I cant understand how you feel about being fed pills because I was always the kind of person that if someone tried to force pills on me, I would through it back in their face, but I have had many accidents that should have killed me, but didnt and left me with some disabilities, not too major, but I have many and they have taken a toll on my body throughout the years, I can even relate with you by being hot bt a car, was going to work one day, never had a car, so I rode a bike, and this asshole was on his cellphone, and technically I had the right away, but was signaling for this asshole to go, and after a minute of him not moving, I decide to go and the basturd finally decides to go, but at the same time, and hits me off my bike, and tries to stop, but his tire runs over my foot and ankle. The guy hut and ran me for a bit, but I guess their conscience got to them and they came back. I went to the hospital, and the doctor says that I had nothing broken, that my ankle just had a really bad sprain, he said if the tire went over so fast that it has a possibility of not crushing so badly. So after that and many months of physical therapy, that sprain never fully healed, amongst other things from past accidents. So yea, I can kind of relate, I hope we both get the peace a that we want.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

Though I cant understand how you feel about being fed pills because I was always the kind of person that if someone tried to force pills on me, I would through it back in their face, but I have had many accidents that should have killed me, but didnt and left me with some disabilities, not too major, but I have many and they have taken a toll on my body throughout the years, I can even relate with you by being hot bt a car, was going to work one day, never had a car, so I rode a bike, and this asshole was on his cellphone, and technically I had the right away, but was signaling for this asshole to go, and after a minute of him not moving, I decide to go and the basturd finally decides to go, but at the same time, and hits me off my bike, and tries to stop, but his tire runs over my foot and ankle. The guy hut and ran me for a bit, but I guess their conscience got to them and they came back. I went to the hospital, and the doctor says that I had nothing broken, that my ankle just had a really bad sprain, he said if the tire went over so fast that it has a possibility of not crushing so badly. So after that and many months of physical therapy, that sprain never fully healed, amongst other things from past accidents. So yea, I can kind of relate, I hope we both get the peace a that we want.

So sorry those things happened to you. You are dear to me, Haku.. May we find peace.

 

[Sweet emotion]

As the title says, I saw my doctor today and he prescribed me on different medication. I honestly feel like I'm just going so he doesn't suspect something worse.

I do not like going but that's adulthood. I want to die. I don't want to keep being fed pills.. April can't come soon enough..

22 years old and suffering from chronic pain. Both parents sides are fucked with mental illness especially my dad's side. Asked my mum why they even had me and she turned it into me blaming her. Maybe I am. I don't know but if they had bad bloodlines, they never should have had me.

Just kill me, please. Something HAS to happen to kill me, right? I had my chance as a pedestrian hit by a car and I survived. IMAGINE THAT?! Everyone told me it's a sign I should still be here. Boones... Fuck off.

Sorry for rant..

Hey sweetie. God I'm sorry you're in so much pain. You know what is crazy that we both have in common? When I was about 3 I was dropped under a kids ride at the board walk. I went completely underneath it. People were screaming and my parents were ready to see my all mangled when the asshole that was controlling the ride stopped it. But when they lifted it up there I was just crying with a scratch down my body. Thank God my mom braided my hair or it would have been ripped out of my head. I wish I would have died back then. I don't remember any of it no matter much I try. Maybe I'm not supposed to remember it. But I think why wasn't I taken then? My family I think is cursed with freak accidents. Do you want to know what my asshole father did? It was two nights before Christmas and he went to the mall with his brother and two friends. He want even going to get anything. The entrance was closed off due to all the traffic so they parked on the other side of the highway and tried to cross it. I day tried because my dad got hit in the fast lane and flew 30 feet in the air. His bones in his legs were shattered but other than that he was fine. And he blamed the guy driving! I said dad you crossed the friggin highway. Why would people think to look for people walking on the highway? Anyway we both lived when we shouldn't have.

How long have you been dealing with this pain? You're much too young. I got my pain at 20 so you know I can relate to you. Mention Lyrica to your doctor.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

Hey sweetie. God I'm sorry you're in so much pain. You know what is crazy that we both have in common? When I was about 3 I was dropped under a kids ride at the board walk. I went completely underneath it. People were screaming and my parents were ready to see my all mangled when the asshole that was controlling the ride stopped it. But when they lifted it up there I was just crying with a scratch down my body. Thank God my mom braided my hair or it would have been ripped out of my head. I wish I would have died back then. I don't remember any of it no matter much I try. Maybe I'm not supposed to remember it. But I think why wasn't I taken then? My family I think is cursed with freak accidents. Do you want to know what my asshole father did? It was two nights before Christmas and he went to the mall with his brother and two friends. He want even going to get anything. The entrance was closed off due to all the traffic so they parked on the other side of the highway and tried to cross it. I day tried because my dad got hit in the fast lane and flew 30 feet in the air. His bones in his legs were shattered but other than that he was fine. And he blamed the guy driving! I said dad you crossed the friggin highway. Why would people think to look for people walking on the highway? Anyway we both lived when we shouldn't have.

How long have you been dealing with this pain? You're much too young. I got my pain at 20 so you know I can relate to you. Mention Lyrica to your doctor.

Been dealing at least 15 years now. Since very young.. Wow, your dad was reckless... Many accidents happens in my family too but never enough to kill at least me.. I will talk to him about Lyrica if the crap he gave me doesn't do its job... My love goes out to you every day... You make me feel like I am not alone as a chronic pain sufferer...

 

[Sweet emotion]

Been dealing at least 15 years now. Since very young.. Wow, your dad was reckless... Many accidents happens in my family too but never enough to kill at least me.. I will talk to him about Lyrica if the crap he gave me doesn't do its job... My love goes out to you every day... You make me feel like I am not alone as a chronic pain sufferer...

You aren't alone. As long as I'm here you're not alone.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

You aren't alone. As long as I'm here you're not alone.

You have opened yourself to help me so much as a new user... It means so much. My account is only a few days old.

 

[Sweet emotion]

You have opened yourself to help me so much as a new user... It means so much. My account is only a few days old.

Think nothing of it. You're a beautiful person who I wish was happy and healthy.

 

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As the title says, I saw my doctor today and he prescribed me on different medication. I honestly feel like I'm just going so he doesn't suspect something worse.

I do not like going but that's adulthood. I want to die. I don't want to keep being fed pills.. April can't come soon enough..

22 years old and suffering from chronic pain. Both parents sides are fucked with mental illness especially my dad's side. Asked my mum why they even had me and she turned it into me blaming her. Maybe I am. I don't know but if they had bad bloodlines, they never should have had me.

Just kill me, please. Something HAS to happen to kill me, right? I had my chance as a pedestrian hit by a car and I survived. IMAGINE THAT?! Everyone told me it's a sign I should still be here. Boones... Fuck off.

Sorry for rant..

Yeah I survived a smash on the motorway without a scratch. Truck wiped me out and did a runner. I was inches from being utterly crushed. All the other stuff I survived to get to this shit place.
Feel for you.