ixkitty
Let me be Selfish, just this once.
- Aug 15, 2020
- 356
I feel like I gave so much of myself. Putting my own feelings aside, disregarding my wants and needs to try to make her happy. Her depression trumped mine, I took care of her but she had no way to take care of me.. and now she got what she wanted out of me and broke up with me. I knew I didn't deserve to live but once again I'm kicked down. It doesn't matter... 50+ more hours of work this week and I'll be able to buy the bullets... I was going to use SN but ... I want to follow Him. If I knew where he CTB I'd go to that exact same spot but I suppose I'll have to find another place.