torturedbylife
Enemy of the world
- May 2, 2020
- 130
For the past month I have been experiencing this strange feeling that I never had...I don't know how to describe it, it's like making peace with life or accepting the fact that it's difficult to impossible to get rid of it right away. I just haven't thought of suicide that much. I even started to have more motivation overall and I felt at the back of my mind that I should start to be more positive. I don't know what's going on with me, it's not in my character to be like that. My life is still miserable and everything is going bad,but here I am, having these feelings. Actually, finishing high school and passing the exams probably gave me a boost. But I don't know, what i'm going through is really weird. I don't know if it happens because of the unavalability of suicide methods for me (yet) or if my mind just wants to make peace with life. Anyways I think I'm going to snap out of it soon because I'm dealing with stomach problems that really affect me. I just wanted to know if anyone else had these moments in life where they felt at peace or like they were taking a break from thinking to ctb.