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Ariii
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- Oct 29, 2023
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Over the past few years, I've noticed a weird cycle when it comes to my social life. I'll go months without having friends at all before I get lonely. Then I'll find at least one, stay friends with them for around 2-6 months, until talking to them starts feeling like a chore. Then I'll eventually drift from them and stop taking and repeat. Even if I "take a break" or start talking to them less, it still feels like an obligation rather than something I enjoy. I feel selfish for dropping my former friends so quickly, and I do wish I could have a long-lasting connection, but I just can't.
I've consider the possibility of me having either autism or schizoid pd, but I don't think I fit the criteria that well. With autism, I lack all of the sensory and routine-based symptoms. And with schizoid pd, I do occasionally enjoy human interaction and I can feel connection to some degree.
Does anyone know what this could be caused by, or if it's just part of my personality? And does anyone know of a way to fix it? I feel like I'm hurting the people I become friends with, and they're all great people too, but if I keep trying to talk to them, even the thought of them existing makes me want to destroy my phone and barricade my house.
I've consider the possibility of me having either autism or schizoid pd, but I don't think I fit the criteria that well. With autism, I lack all of the sensory and routine-based symptoms. And with schizoid pd, I do occasionally enjoy human interaction and I can feel connection to some degree.
Does anyone know what this could be caused by, or if it's just part of my personality? And does anyone know of a way to fix it? I feel like I'm hurting the people I become friends with, and they're all great people too, but if I keep trying to talk to them, even the thought of them existing makes me want to destroy my phone and barricade my house.