Painless_end

Painless_end

Life is too difficult for me
Oct 11, 2019
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It's such a frightening thought. We simply don't know when we are going to depart.

Perfectly healthy people die daily from accidents.

Suicidal people survive their attempt.

Only in those who have managed to CTB successfully can we say they finally had enough and did it.

I always hoped that when my time came, the suicidal instinct would overpower the survival instinct. It hasn't happened yet, but I've come close many times.

What it means is, the vast majority of us we have not been given the ability to dictate our time of passing. Only some of us have.

This is bad news for those who are suffering and want to leave but can't. None of us was born with our consent. Majority of us still get up every morning to face life. But some of us want to leave desperately. We have tried our best to make the most sense of it and every option is attempted to NOT ctb as long as we can.

But in the absence of a quick painless suicide method, we may end up being at the mercy of life.
 
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JohnUK

JohnUK

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Feb 15, 2019
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Totally agree with you.

Also with this virus pandemic, anyone at anytime could just drop dead quickly. The virus that has killed tens of thousands of People.
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

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Mar 23, 2018
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I keep hoping my wanting to die will overpower my S.I. So tired of being here. :aw: It really sucks that people who want to be here are taken and those of us that don't are forced to be here day after day, year after year. :angry:
Totally agree with you.

Also with this virus pandemic, anyone at anytime could just drop dead quickly. The virus that has killed tens of thousands of People.

Lucky bastards !!!
 
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JohnUK

JohnUK

Student
Feb 15, 2019
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I keep hoping my wanting to die will overpower my S.I. So tired of being here. :aw: It really sucks that people who want to be here are taken and those of us that don't are forced to be here day after day, year after year. :angry:


Lucky bastards !!!
Of course. But it looks a painful way to go
 
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Yomyom

Darker dearie, much darker
Feb 5, 2020
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Of course. But it looks a painful way to go
As long I don't have to kill myself, so be it
But the chance to die from it very low
 
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faust

lost among the stars
Jan 26, 2020
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Suicide is a product of our rational thinking and feelings from our heart.
There are not too much things in our lives that bring the harmonic mutuality of both and the state of equilibrium.
Survival instinct reminds us that we still have instincts but at the same time it tells us that we are not animals anymore, we are people...
We can overcome it - and freedom will prevail over the fear.
The liberation from all doubts and willpower will win.
We can lose the battle but we can never lose the war...
 
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Csmith8827

Don't you listen to your heart? (Listen to it...)
Oct 26, 2019
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