We are not the same

[Harleyyy]

Do you ever just. Want to do it? But at the last moment your brain gives you false hopes that things MIGHT be okay someday although they wont.

 

[RileyTanaka]

Of course, I'd argue that's why many of us are on here. A lot of us here call it survival instinct. I know I still have a little bit left of that in me too.

 

[Notwinnernotawin]

Yes. But I try to be rational. My method needs to be executed with patience, I need to be alone for at least 30 mins. I always have the urge to do it when I'm alone, tomorrow I may have the opportunity...

 

[Harleyyy]

Also the thought of surviving it is terrifying. I could end up in a much worse situation than now (dont think its possible but still) and i wouldnt get a chance to attempt it again and people will always treat me differently and i will be stripped naked emotionally infront of everyone

Yes. But I try to be rational. My method needs to be executed with patience, I need to be alone for at least 30 mins. I always have the urge to do it when I'm alone, tomorrow I may have the opportunity...

What is your method

Of course, I'd argue that's why many of us are on here. A lot of us here call it survival instinct. I know I still have a little bit left of that in me too.

This
Sucks.

 

[your pathologist]

I had my method and some form of timeline
Then I freaked out and spent over a month in a psych ward looking for hope...
Now I can't find my sn and now im stuck here

 

[NightmareTour]

Used to have that issue. Eventually managed to get rid of it the time before last, then someone found me. Last time, it wasn't there at all, but I fucked it up.

 

[a.n.kirillov]

Yes, but my method has a preparation phase of 5+ days, which could be construed as an up- or a downside, depending on how you look at it.

 

[theguineapigking]

Kind of. But I always just knew that things wouldn't get better.

It's more the thought of my family that's held me back soooo many times. But underneath all of that 'false hope', I see my situation for what it is; hopeless.

I also fear having others find out I attempted(if I fail). My body may be screwed up, but I'd have to get home from the hotel room, which would be hard if I'm still sickly(especially if I can't walk). If my family found out that I'm not still asleep in my bedroom, but rather I'm missing, it'll be a hella awkward conversation there.

Sorry about your situation man. You're welcome to pm me any time, if you need to talk more. I will just listen and respond, with no judgement.

Best wishes.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Yes. I'm suicidal everyday but it's like my mind tries sometimes to find silly excuses like food or movies to keep alive. I really enjoy eating or watching movies but it doesn't change that my life is fucked up.

 

[Ky204]

I relate to this, I'd say it's why all of my past attempts at taking my life have failed, cause I wasn't committed. So I've resorted to starving myself to death (am down to 68Ibs), I went into cardiac arrest last week but unfortunately was not alone. So here I am, still stuck in the same crap.

 

[Notwinnernotawin]

P

What is your method

Partial hanging

 

[Inferdan]

Thinking whether it was I who chose to live and turn myself around or it was SI