Was supposed to be tonight...

[Seekingawayout]

I planned on getting drunk and CTB. But I don't really drink, and it just made me sick. So now IDK what to do. I guess I could lay down for a bit, get over the puking then try it sober. I didn't really want to be sober. It just seems like it would be so much easier if I had a little liquid courage.
Plus my mom is planning a "new years lunch" for us. So now I feel guilty. All month I've planned on NYE. I didn't want to be here for 2023.

 

[time2fly]

Similar boat here. Was planning on doing the deed tonight but messed up some things right before. I do kind of enjoy my headstone reading died Jan 1 2023. Just to serve as a reminder that I tried to fight through that one last night.

 

[GasMonkey]

What's your method?

 

[damaged_soul]

This really resonates me because I too tried to ctb exactly one year ago on New Year's Eve. Sadly it did not work out.

 

[Seekingawayout]

I will be trying today, I think. Mom postponed our lunch, so I don't have to worry about going to that today. I still feel kind of sick, but not as bad.
I will be trying SWB in the tub. I don't have much hope for it. But if it fails, I'll do partial.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do understand that it's awful still being here in this world when you really wish to be gone, so I hope that you find the freedom that you are looking for.