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nosoul

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Apr 1, 2023
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My hs friend is taking dogs for me because she thinks I'm going to get medical treatment. Damn though I'm gonna miss them. Is it fucked up to give them dogs and ctb?

I worry about going to shelter and she has 2 dogs 3 cats, nice home, I'm in tiny hotel room, but bad to ctb right away? I wanted to see them see me die so they could get over it, what do u all think?

I can't tell anyone I'm suicidal
 
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Disaster

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Jan 24, 2023
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I know that we're expected to express empathy and all to threads like that, but it makes me angry that people use a pro-choice site to ask other people to make choice for them. It sounds manipulative and just wrong.
Also, this site is for adult people of sound mind, who can make this decision themselves. If you think you may not be able to make decisions, it's likely not a right place for you.
 
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nosoul

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Apr 1, 2023
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I know that we're expected to express empathy and all to threads like that, but it makes me angry that people use a pro-choice site to ask other people to make choice for them. It sounds manipulative and just wrong.
Also, this site is for adult people of sound mind, who can make this decision themselves. If you think you may not be able to make decisions, it's likely not a right place for you.
Huh,is this at me? Yeah it will be sad for them, shit sort of makes me want to live a little now, but it's for the best. You think she'll be angry? I think I can do partial tomorrow night, but it's weird I feel better after choking myself out a little.
Now I'm all bummed
Now I'm all bummed
 
stillmirenai

stillmirenai

everything is fragile.
Mar 29, 2023
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My hs friend is taking dogs for me because she thinks I'm going to get medical treatment. Damn though I'm gonna miss them. Is it fucked up to give them dogs and ctb?

I worry about going to shelter and she has 2 dogs 3 cats, nice home, I'm in tiny hotel room, but bad to ctb right away? I wanted to see them see me die so they could get over it, what do u all think?

I can't tell anyone I'm suicidal
The wording of this title initially made me think you were going to attempt some sort of suicide method involving dogs, and I was quite intrigued, to be honest. It's not exactly messed up, since it could be considered a kind of parting gift, like something to remember you by. It's your life, and you can do whatever feels right with it. I don't think it's a good idea to ctb in front of them; that would probably traumatize them. If you really want to ease the pain, rent a hotel room or someplace where your friend doesn't have immediate access to you. That way she won't have to see your lifeless corpse, at least.
 
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nosoul

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Apr 1, 2023
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The wording of this title initially made me think you were going to attempt some sort of suicide method involving dogs, and I was quite intrigued, to be honest. It's not exactly messed up, since it could be considered a kind of parting gift, like something to remember you by. It's your life, and you can do whatever feels right with it. I don't think it's a good idea to ctb in front of them; that would probably traumatize them. If you really want to ease the pain, rent a hotel room or someplace where your friend doesn't have immediate access to you. That way she won't have to see your lifeless corpse, at least.
That's the plan, she will be far away. Makes me almost not want to ctb but I know they will be in nature, now I need balls to ctb:(
 
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That's the plan, she will be far away. Makes me almost not want to ctb but I know they will be in nature, now I need balls to ctb:(
Survival instinct is almost always the hardest part of killing yourself. Good luck out there, and I hope you find the peace you desire.
 
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nosoul

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Apr 1, 2023
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Makes me almost want to stick around longer to see them again, almost feel it backfire emotionally. I think my hs friends will be pissed I ctb, but yeah sort of like a parting gift.
 
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SoftWorries

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Feb 22, 2023
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Why would your animals benefit in any way from watching you die? It's much better that they're somewhere safe away from stress.
 
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nosoul

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Why would your animals benefit in any way from watching you die? It's much better that they're somewhere safe away from stress.
Yeah the alternative is they go to some shelter and that would be awful because they are a little older and wouldn't get adopted out. I freak out in the mornings though when I know my dreams are gone.
 

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