Was I born to commit suicide?

[tercermundista]

Was I born to lose? If life were a video game, it would be like put someone who's never played a game play Jump King Quest. How could someone born without skill or willpower win? This was destined to end badly from the start.

Does anyone else think their own life was going to end like this?

 

[ChinUp]

I really never thought my life would come to this point of wanting to ctb but here I am.

 

[oatmeal.n]

Was I born to lose? If life were a video game, it would be like put someone who's never played a game play Jump King Quest. How could someone born without skill or willpower win? This was destined to end badly from the start.

Does anyone else think their own life was going to end like this?

ive always wanted it even if previously i couldn't place my finger on why. now im aware, and i don't think there was anything that could stop the path ive come down. it is what it is, and personally im comfortable with choosing how and when to go. but yes, im really not surprised by where ive ended up. im sure little me would be reeling with excitement knowing i finally have options on where, when, and how to kill myself.

 

[tercermundista]

I really never thought my life would come to this point of wanting to ctb but here I am.

When I was younger, I didn't think so either, but now, thinking about it from this perspective and with more experience, I realize that everything was wrong from the beginning and that I didn't realize it because I was very young and naive.

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case I'm certainly only meant to cease existing and to never suffer in this dreadful, futile and torturous existence ever again is just all I wish for, existence just feels like a mistake to me and I never should had been burdened with this existence at all, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep.