I was raised in a strict Jehovah's Witness household and felt hated by God from an early age. Felt like I couldn't ever be good enough. I used to think at times I was being punished by God (I was abused from an early age also). Looking back, I probably felt abandoned by God. I can remember feeling such sadness, like my life would always be that way.
That's my experience with thinking my life was predetermined.