eaturdirt
Focused on healing š
- Apr 14, 2024
- 104
Hi everyone reading this (:
I feel really conflicted at the moment. I don't exactly know why but I have this big urge to try to save others from the person who abused me, or not exactly save, but more warning them. I don't want the things that happened to me to happen to anyone else. In the Netherlands there are two places he said that he comes sometimes. these are social places like a cafe and a club. I am now really on the fence about going to those two places and warning the people working there. Especially because those places are for sure a safe place for many individuals and I also bet that they want to keep it a safe place. Warning wouldn't hurt right? The thing is that it's really hard for me to actually go to these places because the cities they're in bring back a lot of memories and even some trauma related to the abuser. Even thinking about going there, makes my chest ache with fear and makes my breathing shallow. I do feel like I have to do this, for the sake of my own peace of mind. I could at least say that I did it. I don't think I'd ever get over it if I didn't do it.
I don't know if I should really do it though, am I just making too much of a big deal out of it? What do you think?
I feel really conflicted at the moment. I don't exactly know why but I have this big urge to try to save others from the person who abused me, or not exactly save, but more warning them. I don't want the things that happened to me to happen to anyone else. In the Netherlands there are two places he said that he comes sometimes. these are social places like a cafe and a club. I am now really on the fence about going to those two places and warning the people working there. Especially because those places are for sure a safe place for many individuals and I also bet that they want to keep it a safe place. Warning wouldn't hurt right? The thing is that it's really hard for me to actually go to these places because the cities they're in bring back a lot of memories and even some trauma related to the abuser. Even thinking about going there, makes my chest ache with fear and makes my breathing shallow. I do feel like I have to do this, for the sake of my own peace of mind. I could at least say that I did it. I don't think I'd ever get over it if I didn't do it.
I don't know if I should really do it though, am I just making too much of a big deal out of it? What do you think?
