Stick
Experienced
- Aug 31, 2020
- 269
This site is a great place to talk about the things I can't with anyone else, but it isn't the same thing as face to face interaction with someone you know and love. Especially with COVID, I feel like I'm not getting any of that. I really want to get out there and socialize a bit more. I really haven't been able to make friends who live near me and hang out with them at all, not just because of quarantine, but because, well, I haven't really been trying to meet new people.
I'm desperate for someone to be with, but I can't bring myself to forge new connections when I know that I'm going to be hurting them when I die. How can I forge a connection with someone when I know it's only temporary, and when I know that our friendship will inevitably hurt them? What am I supposed to do in the meantime? I guess just stay lonely.
Besides, even with this desire, I don't even maintain my current relationships. My family practically has to drag me out of my room when they want to do something with me, so I probably don't have the energy to make a new connection anyways.
I'm desperate for someone to be with, but I can't bring myself to forge new connections when I know that I'm going to be hurting them when I die. How can I forge a connection with someone when I know it's only temporary, and when I know that our friendship will inevitably hurt them? What am I supposed to do in the meantime? I guess just stay lonely.
Besides, even with this desire, I don't even maintain my current relationships. My family practically has to drag me out of my room when they want to do something with me, so I probably don't have the energy to make a new connection anyways.