wanting to ctb because of mistakes I've made

[lookingtoendit]

Hi there. I'm new here but have been browsing for a good few months.
Is this a valid reason to want to die? I really can't deal with the regrets i have from the past 5 or 6 years. at every turn, i keep doing things wrong and it seems like i'm just going to keep continuing in the same way.
also I don't feel like I have anyone to talk to about being suicidal . I've talked to friends about it but would be good to talk to some like minded individuals.

 

[All washed up]

I'm here because of stupid mistakes and regrets are so hard to get rid of

 

[lookingtoendit]

I'm here because of stupid mistakes and regrets are so hard to get rid of

they just repeat in my head over and over. I wonder if there is a way to remove memories?
The only thing that has helped me so far is taking codeine.

 

[tryingtoescape]

Yes, definitely one of the reasons. They keep repeating in my head over and over :(

 

[ADruinedmylife]

I am here because of mistakes too well the consequences of those mistakes.

 

[lookingtoendit]

Yes, definitely one of the reasons. They keep repeating in my head over and over :(

how do you deal with those thoughts?

 

[tryingtoescape]

how do you deal with those thoughts?

I really can't to be honest. I just feel horrible and uneasy all the time.

 

[Spitfire]

Hi there. I'm new here but have been browsing for a good few months.
Is this a valid reason to want to die? I really can't deal with the regrets i have from the past 5 or 6 years. at every turn, i keep doing things wrong and it seems like i'm just going to keep continuing in the same way.
also I don't feel like I have anyone to talk to about being suicidal . I've talked to friends about it but would be good to talk to some like minded individuals.

It sounds like you are in the right place if you are wanting to find people who may understand a little better.. to talk to about anything really, but particularly for with CTB.

I am sorry to hear you have regrets bothering you. I hope this place and the people can help you in some way.

Welcome to SS.

 

[All washed up]

they just repeat in my head over and over. I wonder if there is a way to remove memories?
The only thing that has helped me so far is taking codeine.

I've done nothing so far.
I don't think there's anything that can help me.
It's so annoying

 

[lookingtoendit]

It sounds like you are in the right place if you are wanting to find people who may understand a little better.. to talk to about anything really, but particularly for with CTB.

I am sorry to hear you have regrets bothering you. I hope this place and the people can help you in some way.

Welcome to SS.

Thank you for the welcome.

 

[Spitfire]

Thank you for the welcome.

Thank you for thanking me.. it means a lot. I hope you can feel better about things that you regret. We all do it making mistakes.

 

[lookingtoendit]

Thank you for thanking me.. it means a lot. I hope you can feel better about things that you regret. We all do it making mistakes.

I hope so too. you're right everyone makes mistakes! I find it very hard to let go of them... imagining what 'should' have happened.

 

[All washed up]

I hope so too. you're right everyone makes mistakes! I find it very hard to let go of them... imagining what 'should' have happened.

Yes every single hour I imagine what should have happened.
Your definitely not alone

 

[lookingtoendit]

Yes every single hour I imagine what should have happened.
Your definitely not alone

it's quite torturous, isn't it?
I think anti anxiety drugs can possibly help us from thinking so much, or slow thoughts down a bit.

 

[Spitfire]

100% agree on the ruminating thoughts!

 

[Kat!]

This is definitely a reason, but in all honesty, no one needs a reason!
Whether it is pain inside or out, it is pain one way or another.
I have made a long list of stupid decisions that have landed me right here, but I have also made some wise ones, very few and thin though.
It's up to you whether you want to fight despite the odds, or give up and hope for the best.

 

[LastWhisper]

I did a lot of mistakes in the past 9 years, but I somehow was able to deal with it until it happened again recently, I mean the same stupid things and my behavior that I can't fix at all. This is one of the main reasones to suicide.

 

[greyback330]

eh same issue man my last 5 years are my reason of my ctb
if u want to talk with me feel free to do it

 

[Lost.]

Mistakes and bad decions led me here.
I regret endlessly.

 

[Craig31ldn]

From what i see people say on here. Most of the time its an unfortunate and unfair circumstance that triggers it.

Leading to low self esteem or low socail skills.

Thus plenty of mistakes.

Leading to bad advice or bad luck or bad company.

Then more mistakes.

Then regret more regrets.

And years without any luck.

 

[enuff]

... at every turn, i keep doing things wrong and it seems like i'm just going to keep continuing in the same way.
also I don't feel like I have anyone to talk to about being suicidal . I've talked to friends about it but would be good to talk to some like minded individuals.

yup same. over and over and over. stop the world, i wanna get off!

 

[pen]

Just don't

 

[Final_frontier]

There are no mistakes. Everything's predetermined.

 

[PaxAmerica]

eh same issue man my last 5 years are my reason of my ctb
if u want to talk with me feel free to do it

And trusting the wrong person!

There are no mistakes. Everything's predetermined.

Perhaps. That certainly takes the edge off making mistakes by thinking its out of your hands.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Wow this sounds like me. I'm also here because of regrets with the guys I been with. All leading to more low feelings because before that I already had low feelings because of trauma from acne. I regret so many things I been thinking of this a lot lately especially today how things could have been different if xyz happened. I want to die today because of these regrets and thoughts.

 

[FuneralCry]

We are cursed with never being able to forget anything and our regrets can haunt us. I think for me there isn't much that I could have done really, the majority of the negative things that happened to me were out of my control. I believe it was a mistake that I was born in the first place though.