Wanted to CTB on Valentines day but messed up.

[deathissosad]

So today i was fully prepared to CTB via hanging. My dad used to work nights but hasn't for the last few weeks so that was one hurdle to jump over but nothing big. Just had to wait for him to go to sleep. Then i had my notes to finish up wich also wasnt too bad of a thing. Went to the bank maxxed out my credit card and withdrew everything from my debit but the amount was too much they have to have me come back tomorrow. I was really hoping to spend valentines day with my hunny in the spiritual realm but it looks like ill have to wait a little longer. Im sorry my hunny. It was oddly peaceful going to withdraw everything to my name though. Makes it real. Gave me power and i am happy i will have something to leave my family. Never thought id get to that point but hey! At leasti can pay for my funeral. I hope my soul mate forgives me for missing valentines day with her. Im hoping for tomorrow. Give me the strength and courage u guys! All i want is to be with my soulmate. That is all. If anyone would like to share some final goodbye tunes feel free to send em here.

 

[chunguschung]

pm if you want to chat :) but nick drake - pink moon is a solid choice.

 

[active_daily_user]

Hanging isn't the best and highest success rate way to die so plan carefully. That's why you shouldn't stick to dates you should only do it when everything is ready.

 

[deathissosad]

Hanging isn't the best and highest success rate way to die so plan carefully. That's why you shouldn't stick to dates you should only do it when everything is ready.

For sure i jonestly could have made everything perfect for today but my lack of motivation got the best of me the past few weeks. At least im thinking logically and not emotionally. I should add its full hanging tho. Not partial. Anchor point and rope are a check! Just needed to do my notes and bank withdrawal, im proud of myself for at least having a lil something to give my family before i go.

pm if you want to chat :) but nick drake - pink moon is a solid choice.

I like this song. Just listened to Road by him as well. I like the vibe

 

[Havic228]

Don't please don't it isn't worth. Iv been in your shoes life seems hopeless I get it but your life isn't worthless and your soulmate would want you to end it so quickly she would want you to be happy and enjoy your life not throw it away I know I would I use to have a girl friend 17 and she was lovely. She died from Cancer we both knew it wasn't going to last but we enjoyed each other anyways and the last thing she told was. Don't be down when I'm gone go live your life and don't look back and Remember I'll be waiting for you after you have lived your life. That was hard but never discouraged me. And your Family will suffer if you do this, my Aunt did it last year my family doesn't speak to each other anymore. Please if there is anyway I can convince you not to do this pm me we can talk I have lots of stories Iv gone through Iv tried killing my self and ending everything far too many times. But just so you know things will get better eventually but things take time to heal I'm still healing but I don't want others to kill them selfs to I tell your no matter what you think your life is worth living as there will never be another you.

 

[FuneralCry]

At least that disrespectful pro lifer is crossed out. That type of insensitive nonsense belongs nowhere near this site.
But anyway I hope that you find what you are looking for, I wish you the best.

 

[hxppythxught]

Hope you find what you're looking for soon! I wish you the best CTB. Hope you'll be able to see your soulmate soon with careful planning of course. I personally will be doing the SN method when i get the materials.

 

[LittleBlackCat]

I hope you find peace good luck.