i want to die now. i've been wanting to for ages and i know how i'll do it but there's always been some event that gets in the way. i have no plans now, nothing stopping me but my family. i can't bare the thought of ruining their lives. i live with my parents and they'd have to see my body. i know they'd never recover but i'm just so tired and i don't know what to do
Hi, until a few days ago, I was also tormented by the same thoughts. I think it's a real sense of responsibility. Then suddenly another thought: "If I can't help myself, imagine what contribution I could make to others." Yesterday I booked a hotel for the CTB. My family has already suffered so much because of me due to heavy drug problems. Even though I'm financially independent and successful at work, the rest of the time, if I'm not high, I'm devastated by dark thoughts. I believe that when I'm no longer here, after the initial impact, my family will be better off. I wrote a few lines to explain my choice and ease their feelings of guilt. And in the end, this time I put what I want first, not what others would want for me. Remember that this is just my opinion, which I share because, like you, I found myself at a crossroads. I sincerely hope you can find the strength to react and ask for help without creating too many problems for yourself. Overcoming extreme conditions is difficult but not impossible. I believe you can do it. Thanks to your family, have you tried to share your feelings with the family member you feel truly close to?
