Discussion Want a friend

[Ryan.s]

I'm going to try to kill myself again tonight for what will be at least the 10th time. Call me a baby, but I just want a friend. Does anyone else feel this way?

 

[Lostnotfound]

Totally. I've tried several times and I am working out my next attempt but yeah, I want someone to hold my hand, someone to talk to until I pass out, someone to,be there I guess. I understand where you are coming from.

 

[itsmeagain]

Sweetie, if you want, the people here will definitely be here for you. 100%.

 

[BPD Barbie]

Everyone will be here for you, it won't just be one friend, it'll be tens of friends for you

 

[Ryan.s]

Totally. I've tried several times and I am working out my next attempt but yeah, I want someone to hold my hand, someone to talk to until I pass out, someone to,be there I guess. I understand where you are coming from.

I want someone to hold my hand too. Damn I can relate.

 

[S1mpleme]

I'm going to try to kill myself again tonight for what will be at least the 10th time. Call me a baby, but I just want a friend. Does anyone else feel this way?

You mean you want to CTB cause you don't have any friends? I don't have friends and family too, I'm so tired of such life, that's why I want to CTB.

 

[Ryan.s]

You mean you want to CTB cause you don't have any friends? I don't have friends and family too, I'm so tired of such life, that's why I want to CTB.

I'm sorry :( I hope you find peace with CTB. Just remember, with death comes freedom.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I want someone to hold my hand too. Damn I can relate.

It would be much better if someone could physically do this for you, rather than people on a forum doing it figuratively, at least in my opinion it would be, but for almost all of us, the forum is all we've got. I wish you didn't feel so bad that ending your own life is the only way to fix it, but it's your decision and I want to be here for you somehow. I'll probably be at work through it all, but I'll do my best to be around.

Good luck finding peace.

 

[Ryan.s]

Alright. I'm about to set the noose up, drink the liquor and do this thing. I have to constrict my carotid artery. If I can't get the artery I can't hang myself. I hope the rope just gets the damn artery this time. 10th attempt, hopefully my last attempt.

Thank you guys

 

[Lutembëe]

We're here

 

[Lostnotfound]

Whilst you may be alone in the physical sense, in heart and mind and spirit we are with you.

 

[MsMaudlin]

We are all your friends, surrounding you in love ❤

 

[Lost in a Dream]

Alright. I'm about to set the noose up, drink the liquor and do this thing. I have to constrict my carotid artery. If I can't get the artery I can't hang myself. I hope the rope just gets the damn artery this time. 10th attempt, hopefully my last attempt.

Thank you guys

So this is happening very soon then? I hope you don't have to go through this any more times than you already have. It's bad enough to be miserable enough to do it, but it's even worse if you try multiple times, but are still stuck here. Good luck.

 

[Ghost2211]

I am here with you too

 

[Ryan.s]

So this is happening very soon then? I hope you don't have to go through this any more times than you already have. It's bad enough to be miserable enough to do it, but it's even worse if you try multiple times, but are still stuck here. Good luck.

In about a few minutes. Got everything set up. Why is life so shitty? Well, I'm going to try to go to sleep forever now :)

 

[Ghost2211]

Sleep well man. We will be here if you return.

 

[Ryan.s]

Sleep well man. We will be here if you return.

I'll be back tonight if it didn't work. :(

I'll be back tonight if it didn't work. :(

I'm gonna try till I get it through. Sick and tired of waking up every morning realizing I failed at killing myself again. How fucking hard is to to just kill oneself?

 

[Pan]

Respectfully, have you tried full suspension hanging? Death guaranteed with this method. There are no second chances, no time to think, before one knows it, full blackout ensues with death usually twenty minutes, but it is advisable that you not be interrupted. It is also advisable to refrain from eating or drinking some two hours before lest you soil yourself. You will be free. Guaranteed. I may not know you, friend, but consider you as part of the family here at s.s. Remember too that there is no shame in reconsidering; cowards, after all, are not fools.

 

[Ryan.s]

Respectfully, have you tried full suspension hanging? Death guaranteed with this method. There are no second chances, no time to think, before one knows it, full blackout ensues with death usually twenty minutes, but it is advisable that you not be interrupted. It is also advisable to refrain from eating or drinking some two hours before lest you soil yourself. You will be free. Guaranteed. I may not know you, friend, but consider you as part of the family here at s.s. Remember too that there is no shame in reconsidering; cowards, after all, are not fools.

Are you saying not to drink alcohol before CTB? Or not to drink liquids? I've always been told alcohol reduces SI?