it's_all_a_game

it's_all_a_game

I remember...death in the afternoon...
Nov 7, 2020
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Every-time I go to sleep at night now, I hope that when I wake up, I'm in a better place, a better time period, a better world. The fun friendship and laughter of my childhood novels and the glittering nightlife of my favourite bands from 36 years ago. But I open my eyes each morning to this same crappy apartment, same crappy economic system, same crappy society & it's driving me nuts. I feel more suicidal than ever before, knowing my dreams of existing in a world worth living in won't come true. I feel so tempted to take my SN, even though I know it's an awful idea with my mom home, because waking up to this disappointing planet is wearing on me.
 
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Snake of Eden

Snake of Eden

“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
Jun 22, 2021
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I feel the same. Waking up to this hard reality is always painful to say the least. I wish that I never wake up and just keep sleeping without even dreaming of anything would be my ideal state of being. I hope you dont rush into impulsive ctb. You sound mature enough to consider your mom in your plan.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I hate waking up, it is the worst part of my day. It is a feeling of dread and hopelessness, knowing I have another day ahead of my pointless existence. I understand how you feel, dreams can never compare to reality. I look forward to the day when I finally fall into an eternal sleep.
 
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A_miStake_of_NATURE

A_miStake_of_NATURE

I wish no one had to CTB..........
Aug 14, 2020
703
Yeah. Me too. Every day I struggle to go to sleep at night, because it means there's a new day coming….. The same day. Every day……
I'll never have the luxury of dying in my sleep, though it would be nice
 
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Snake of Eden

Snake of Eden

“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
Jun 22, 2021
2,475
Yeah. Me too. Every day I struggle to go to sleep at night, because it means there's a new day coming….. The same day. Every day……
I'll never have the luxury of dying in my sleep, though it would be nice
I always wonder what good deed did people who die naturally in their sleep has done to deserve such a peaceful exit. Sign me up
 
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A_miStake_of_NATURE

A_miStake_of_NATURE

I wish no one had to CTB..........
Aug 14, 2020
703
I always wonder what good deed did people who die naturally in their sleep has done to deserve such a peaceful exit. Sign me up
I know, right???!!
Sign me up as well!! :):):):):)
 
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Seafoam

Seafoam

Student
Jun 26, 2020
103
Was just thinking about how exhausting it is to get through the day.
 
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Alwaysbadtime

Alwaysbadtime

Enlightened
Jun 28, 2021
1,158
I'm sure it sucks for zoo animals, animals in shelters and pets that have terrible lives at home. Shit sucks all around.
 
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ClownMe

ClownMe

Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
Apr 7, 2021
20,561
Yeah. Me too. Every day I struggle to go to sleep at night, because it means there's a new day coming….. The same day. Every day……
I'll never have the luxury of dying in my sleep, though it would be nice
That's how I feel, it's basically Groundhog Day. On one hand I should feel happy that another shitty day is almost over, but on the other hand I know all I've got to look forward to is another shitty day. Night time sucks and waking up sucks.
 
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