Waking up at 36 with nothing

[OnMyLast Legs]

Mea culpa! I admit that I was deluded, lazy, cowardly. I admit that I used drugs and porn to trick myself into thinking I was happy. I admit that the smaller I became, the more I indulged in delusions of grandeur.

Three or four times I turned to religion--psychosis as an attempt at freedom. My real life was unbearable, so I tried to pretend that the invisible supernatural world was where the real action was.

I've been living at home for six years. I have no money, nothing invested, no degree, no skills. How on earth do I pick myself up?

Admitting the truth is a long way from having a better life. Maybe this doesn't belong on the recovery board lol

 

[Sasha Swift]

Damn, I would like to give you some advice, but I don't really know. I'm trying to get some stuff done which I've been procrastinating on for a long time, and I'm only making small steps forward. Maybe the key is to keep at it and try over and over, but I have to be honest, I don't really know. Good luck to you, with everything.

 

[Hvergelmir]

How on earth do I pick myself up?

Same as if you were younger.
Get on an education, or apply for jobs. You're starting late, that's all.

If you're aiming low, you can turn things around in a year or two. If you aim high, it'll be more like ten years, but you still have that time if you're passionate about pursuing an advanced field.

Realistically, you will not catch up to people who started 15 years ago. But you don't have to.