waiting instead of doing it myself

[h4yate]

plannings too hard. every time i try, i overthink and just scrap the idea entirely. i think im just going to continue living until death comes to me naturally.

i feel like doing planned ctb is too hard for me. maybe im a coward but i dont want my si to kick in when i dont want it to - or maybe ill chicken out entirely.

everyday i just hope death will catch me off guard and thats how ill ctb. whether its accidentally falling off of a high place or crashing my car, i wouldnt try to stop it.

 

[day]

Could try following a regimen or something so you don't necessarily have to plan it yourself?

Either way you choose I hope you manage to find peace OP.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand that it's so tiring feeling trapped here, suicide certainly is too difficult at least to me. I believe it really should be much easier to finally escape from all the suffering, I see it as being so cruel how we are denied the option of peaceful and guaranteed ways to cease existing. But anyway best wishes.