waiting has to be the worst...

[Life_and_Death]

waiting to commit, waiting to have everything in place, is probably the worst part. i got money for christmas and im sorry grampy.....but im sure if you were me youd understand.... i just need to call the pharmacy and hope theyll re-prescribe the olanzapine to me. thankfully i literally cant go to my doctors office and plan on using that. get some booze, weed. and in the meantime work on my letters and whatnot.

i wish i had the stuff now though... i wish i was walking out the door on my way to the 'bus stop'...


(comment for my ex-bf)
i told you before.....friends dont work for me.... why shouldnt i..?

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yes, I agree- it's just awful. I largely have my method in place. I'm waiting for my Dad to pass first though- and that could be years.

It's this terrible feeling because it's utterly monstrous to wish him gone. On the other hand, I feel utterly sickened when I wonder how long I might have to wait. Worse- all the making money treading water shit I'm going to have to do until then. I REALLY don't think I could do it while he's still here though.

I hate it that we're all just stuck here in the waiting room- waiting for the time to be right. I hope you are able to get the things you need.