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new.solution1

Experienced
Dec 14, 2021
258
It doesn't feel right to force myself to CTB like it's some homework assignment that is due tomorrow. I feel like I need to wait for the right moment to do it. Unfortunately, I will be suffering immensely if I choose to wait, and I get worried that the right moment will never come. I guess if this waiting turns out to be too long I will force myself to do it. (I have N)
 
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JustAFriendlyGuy

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Jun 23, 2021
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It doesn't feel right to force myself to CTB like it's some homework assignment that is due tomorrow. I feel like I need to wait for the right moment to do it. Unfortunately, I will be suffering immensely if I choose to wait, and I get worried that the right moment will never come. I guess if this waiting turns out to be too long I will force myself to do it. (I have N)
I don't think forcing yourself is a good solution. But at the same time, if you are waiting, you have be careful not to act impulsively. You may experience a really bad day and feel like now is the time, just to realize a few days later that it was not. That's quite common.
 
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Slimetae

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Apr 23, 2022
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I mean there really is no right time I guess you can say a point where you've had enough but that's up to you .
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
45,007
I think that for me personally, I would find it a relief just having the option of N. I'm sorry that you live a life of constant suffering. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.
 
Worndown

Worndown

Illuminated
Mar 21, 2019
3,886
This is not a race. You cross that finish line when you are ready. It sounds line you are not ready yet. I hope all gets better for you. If not, may whatever you choose bring peace and comfort.
 
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Wisdom3_1-9

he/him/his
Jul 19, 2020
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I hear ya. Everyday is pain for me, but I don't feel right leaving yet. For my own peace of mind, I need to leave things in a certain way, so I keep working and fighting through it until that time comes.

I do have a time limit, though. I can't wait indefinitely. At some point, I will break.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
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It doesn't feel right to force myself to CTB like it's some homework assignment that is due tomorrow. I feel like I need to wait for the right moment to do it. Unfortunately, I will be suffering immensely if I choose to wait, and I get worried that the right moment will never come. I guess if this waiting turns out to be too long I will force myself to do it. (I have N)
You'll know when its the right moment
 
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