msesis
Student
- Jun 16, 2024
- 107
day 3 of vsed. haven't had food or drink since 10am thursday. just posting to keep myself company. im not sure how long this will go on, honestly. i decided that if something doesn't happen, i'm refusing to live. whether that happens or not we will see. in the mean time i will vsed and wait for death. opening this thread to keep a log of my symptoms, maybe will help others.
it's 8pm saturday. on the first day or so i spent most of my time sleeping. the relief of deciding to die if things don't work was so relaxing that i collapsed and slept for most of thursday and throughout the night. symptoms today are mostly extreme fatigue. legs are in a constant state of slight pain but easily ignorable. think about water all the time, lol. the temptation is pretty extreme, but i can still squash it pretty easily with willpower. can't sleep for long. vivid dreams. but i am also sleeping on the floor, so that may have something to do with it. everything is exhausting, so i cannot do anything except sit in my thoughts. very bored. every second feels like torture. but it is better than the mental pain i had while living. going to try fall asleep and will update tomorrow. all in all, pretty good experience so far, but i know it's only day 3.
it's 8pm saturday. on the first day or so i spent most of my time sleeping. the relief of deciding to die if things don't work was so relaxing that i collapsed and slept for most of thursday and throughout the night. symptoms today are mostly extreme fatigue. legs are in a constant state of slight pain but easily ignorable. think about water all the time, lol. the temptation is pretty extreme, but i can still squash it pretty easily with willpower. can't sleep for long. vivid dreams. but i am also sleeping on the floor, so that may have something to do with it. everything is exhausting, so i cannot do anything except sit in my thoughts. very bored. every second feels like torture. but it is better than the mental pain i had while living. going to try fall asleep and will update tomorrow. all in all, pretty good experience so far, but i know it's only day 3.