Since there is such an admiration for victimhood in today's culture I figured I might as well get in on the action so since I want to fit in. So I blame chronic pain, controlling parents, biased parenting (favored siblings), injury that took away my extreme athleticism, lack of dmt drugs to open my eyes to my own faults and how special life and energy is, american culture because it is more distant (in europe people are closer and less afraid of being gay for being close with another male), toxic feminism (ruined my family dynamic(my mom would always boss my dad around),my mom was used to getting her way because of how my dad would always give in I assume and this led to her not being able to let others have their way and led to me feeling bullied and led to me eventually hating her and rebelling very hard in a way that dropped my grades and led to them hating me while also half loving me(they loved the fake me)), not having any way to express masculine aggression which is important for male development, hearing the wrong messages from catholic church, moving away from what I was used to and into a place that was more hostile and cliquey, having the wrong outlook on female due to music planting the idea in my mind that we should cry over females and act like they are perfect and males are dependent on them when it is the other way around. Mainly I blame my injuries because I was a class athlete and I became very unconfident because I had to walk weird kinda and it made me over think things, and porn. Porn makes you not pursue girls as much and led to me feeling awkward because I watch so much pornhub that it made me think about every interaction sexually and choke when talking to people more. I also blame my hair. It caused me to look gay to a lot of people I think being so bieber like. There is an occult conspiracy to masculinize women and emasculate men via 3rd wave feminism (see influence of beatles and bieber(btw mccartney was replaced in 65)) Also I blame bad karma. Yes I believe in eternal energy (see cosmic egg video). It is hard because of the fact that being selfish and self serving is how you fulfill a large part of your life but it is also important to act in a way that is nice and helpful to others, but if you care too much about other people, what they think and feel bad all the time it is a disaster but it is also self serving to be caring because people can screw you over. Oh yea and I blame forced psychiatry to poisoning me, that is why I am doing it, I could overcome any problem before and now I just have lost myself and only find comfort in the idea that I have learned from my mistakes and successes in this life and will carry those lessons into a new life. Note: I believe we are in a simulation, it is likely that we exist the most efficient way to organize data (a computer). Also I want to say that 5g and wifi ad flouride and chemicals in the water and food are fucking us up and makes us infertile. No wonder I felt like a so good when I went on a cruise and got away from it all. Also there the scens in better call saul where they make fun of the guy who is suspicious of tech is designed to make you feel stupid for having conspiracy theories. Also the occult tells you what they are doing because of the fact that they want to avoid getting more bad karma that they would get if they didn't tell anyone so that they have less of a chance of their globalist plans of being stopped by good energy. They want to make themselves ai gods. They will start a christian vs islam war and then once people are desperate enough to give in they will offer peace in the form of a one world government and then they will force us to get vaccines that will contain tech that will make us marked and monitored and reliant on them(they will be able to regulate who can use commerce by requiring us to use their tech which has a requirement to be loyal to their ideals). Chinese social credit is the testing ground. Twitter, youtube, google, facebook all censoring self preservationist comments. Secure borders = no war. Islam does not adapt.
My interest in reading your post died in the very first sentence. Pathetic.
Sonnenblume
Sunflower Panda
- Apr 6, 2018
- 574
I blame potatoes.
Edit: In all seriousness, victim-hood is irrelevant. If someone wants out of life just because their tie is on too crooked, they are well within their right. Whether there's a "good" reason or no reason at all. The point is, you silly twats shouldn't be allowed to obligate people to continue a life they didn't sign up for.
Edit: In all seriousness, victim-hood is irrelevant. If someone wants out of life just because their tie is on too crooked, they are well within their right. Whether there's a "good" reason or no reason at all. The point is, you silly twats shouldn't be allowed to obligate people to continue a life they didn't sign up for.
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alice-jane
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- Apr 22, 2018
- 60
>I believe we are in a simulation, it is likely that we exist the most efficient way to organize data (a computer).
could you say more about this? i am curious.
could you say more about this? i am curious.
What people say is that if we continue to have technology advance this fast we will have the ability to make a simulation with such good graphics it is indistinguishable from reality. When that is attained, simulations can be made many times over, and then simulations inside that simulation can be made once the created simulations get advanced enough. -------If you believe in survival of the fittest then it would make sense that the most efficient and effective way of storing and manipulating data would prevail. There are a group of elitists who want to become artificial intelligence gods and move to another dimension. If you read certain parts of the bible, it points to advanced ai being the devil's work considering it is direct competition to humans and soulless. It speaks of people being required to bear the park of the beast. There is a community of people who are aware of this but kind of restrained from spreading word that they are going to try to put chips under our skin so that they can control us by programming the chips to to let us purchase or travel once we do wring against the chippers because of the fact that these type of ideas get you forcefully psychiatried because you are an easy target and the psychs want to feel powerful over as many people as possible and plus dsm5 is designed to section outliers but not too many people to the point where people will see it's bs. Thy just brainwash society to call independent thinkers thinkers crazy. Rumor is that Kanye was sectioned for liking Trump or to be mk ultra'd. So another theory is that deja vu is a symptom of the matrix of the simulation glitching a little. Also there are a lot of people who claim something was one way before in their memory and now it is like it was how it is now all along to everyone else. it's called the mandela effect. Mine is a could swear that chick-fil-a was chic-fil-a. Sidenote: the past doesn't not exist so you can easily hypnotize yourself to remember certain things differently if you understand perception is not exactly defined as a something depended on by the rest of the matrix for it to work within the rules. This is a lot of the reason I call bs when people think they are unable to think positively. Yes it is worthless if you are eating shit and not working out and flirting with hot opposite sex people. But there are fat asses who are happy. I used to fall for the trap of saying I was depressed, I did it because it was trendy and hecca teenangstrebelliousantinatalistphilosohpicalwhatisthereasonIjustwanttosayI'msadbecausebeingavictimputsmeonapedastal but then I realized I was being retarded for not taking responsibility for how I took life. Yes fake it till you make it works. Super Trapper by Future *I can't hate you cuz I faked it till I made it* SO this is what I believe, there was once a bunch of energy, it evolved into a super computer (that can do D-wave operations (go interdemensional)). it created a bunch of simulations. The creator of the first super computer is currently watching the incredibly entertaining fight between good and evil on earth possibly in sped up time. But remember the rules of physics an and electricity etc. do not have to be the same of the origin realm. It could be completely incomprehensibly different. This real is just a very well coded eternal lesson. (Good versus Evil.) enjoy your ability to enjoy. Thinking with a combo of selfishness(evil kindof) and about others is best
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El Topo
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- Apr 21, 2018
- 477
I believe that human consciousness has the power to affect physical reality. But with millions/billions of people all thinking about and desiring different things, it doesn't have much of an overall net effect. I have a theory that the goal of the microchipping agenda is to hook up humans' consciousness to a supercomputer, Matrix-style. Then the controllers will use the consciousness under their control to create an artificial dimension where they can be gods and escape karma.
However, I don't think they will succeed. With peak oil and climate change, I think industrial civilization is going to collapse much sooner than most people think. Things are going to get really tough for humanity over the next 20-50 years.
By the way, Ion900, your posts are interesting, but I recommend typing in paragraphs. Most people are not willing to read long blocks of text.
alice-jane
Member
- Apr 22, 2018
- 60
oh my! now i am curious about the bible and how it refers to ai. it is fascinating that this could all be a simulation. and the dsm5 or whatever it is they have updated it to now—it's kind of scary how much power it has over how to label people's mental states. there is definitely something wrong when this many people are depressed and medicated. what is extra horrible is that we are taught to think it is us—i actually think our society isn't designed to provide/give access to the things that really make people happy. we are set up in competition with each other within a setup that isolates us and prompts us to make continual comparisons between ourselves and unattainable ideals. but there's just enough hope to keep us chomping at the bit, maintaining our own enslavement.
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SleepItOff
Would that I could
- May 5, 2018
- 40
Some spacing between paragraphs would serve you well my friend, lol. I personally find the Mandela Effect theory fascinating, and have for years. I don't subscribe to the Illuminati stuff to any degree really, but I do sincerely believe there's more out there than we as humans can comprehend. I even have a smallish theory that what we deem as "psychics" are people with just a fraction more access to more of the brain than most people have. I mean, supposedly we only use a miniscule percent of it, right?
SleepItOff
Would that I could
- May 5, 2018
- 40
I agree with you big time in that society cannot sustain itself the way it is at present, and things are going to implode far sooner than most are expecting. This is what gives me such mixed feelings when I see people I care about having children. On the one hand I'm happy for them (when it's something that they wanted) but on the other? I'm horrified for their child, and the world they're going to have to survive in. It truly is dog-eat-dog, and it's gonna get far worse before it has even a sliver of a chance of getting better.
SleepItOff
Would that I could
- May 5, 2018
- 40
alice-jane
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- Apr 22, 2018
- 60
SleepItOff
Would that I could
- May 5, 2018
- 40
I'm with you so much on that.
Interestingly enough (and this is totes anecdotal observation) it seems like there are a ton of INFPs (myself included) that struggle with ignoring all the pain and casual savagery around them. It's like this sort of deep mourning for the state of others, and longing for a kinder world. Almost like an excess of empathy, to the point where it's self-destructive.
There's really not a truly competitive bone in my body, and I think that makes surviving in this setup even harder.
El Topo
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- Apr 21, 2018
- 477
I know exactly what you mean about children. When I see my friends' babies, I feel the joy that babies provide, and part of me wishes I had kids too. But in my mind, I'm like, "Is it right to have a baby, knowing that they're going to live in a shit world?"
El Topo
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- Apr 21, 2018
- 477
I think competition is a simple fact of living in a physical universe where every organism needs to eat other organisms in order to survive. But I do believe that a goal of human culture should be to find a healthy balance between cooperation and competition.
There's a lot of anthropological evidence showing that agricultural and pastoralist societies have much higher rates of inequality compared to hunter-gatherer and horticulturalist societies. So who knows... maybe after industrial civilization collapses, people will realize how fucked-up our culture was and will voluntarily choose societal structures that promote equality. I wouldn't be surprised if future historians refer to our era as the Dark Ages, just as people today refer to the Medieval Era as the Dark Ages simply because they had less technology.
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SleepItOff
Would that I could
- May 5, 2018
- 40
It's a mixed bag of feelings for sure :| I've long since abandoned the idea of having kids, mostly because I know what my genetic material holds, and I refuse to risk passing any of that on. In a different world, I'd consider adoption (and I wish more people did!) but in this one, I recognize that my ability to look after myself is only going to deteriorate further with age, so even that's off the table for me. I guess I'm thankful for my self-awareness of my bleak circumstances though? #SilverLinings #SortOfNotReally #Merp
SleepItOff
Would that I could
- May 5, 2018
- 40
That's an interesting thing to imagine! Sometimes I get a chuckle out of picturing how absurd the future history book chapters are gonna be when they talk about this stretch of time...and I agree that hunter-gatherer societies seemed to have a paradoxical sort of stability to them. The goal should definitely be to unify, and while our contemporary society might preach that, it sure doesn't practice it.
alice-jane
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- Apr 22, 2018
- 60
i've taken the test and evaluated as INFP the first time and INTP twice after that. i'm extremely sensitive to animal mistreatment and any underdog human. there's a lot of violence in everyday interactions from the way some people drive to the way they communicate. it exhausts me and makes me just not want to participate. yes, well said—it is definitely a perpetual state of mourning about the state of others and longing for a kinder world. the pity is that we are capable of it but we keep passing the ugliness on.
SleepItOff
Would that I could
- May 5, 2018
- 40
It's so fascinating how often the IN types find themselves with these specific struggles! I'm the same exact way with animals (always preferred them to my human counterparts, haha) and have always felt so deeply for the disenfranchised. It's exhausting trying to keep things in balance. And I definitely share in your frustration that we as humans COULD make things better, but collectively don't because of how so many of the things we operate in/under are designed.
These are very good thoughts regarding consciousness affecting reality, my believing in karma supports that if you think about it. Regarding the hooking up to a super computer our consciousnesses and then manipulating people to manipulate karma-that is very interesting and expected, it would be interesting to see if the manipulation of it so nefariously will lead to the system rejecting it somehow.
What I am thinking of as an example would be performing acts on common people that make them appreciative when really they are doing something minor like providing water mad-max style.
Yes I know about the paragraphs, I don't feel like I get my point across the same way when I don't do walls of text. I will try editing is line breaks after I write it unless I feel like I want it to be received like wall of text because it there is just something about it when it is that way.
Yea great thoughts, I agree. The main thing that is fucking us is isolation, it is essential to have packs of people 20 strong. Sure it is hard to get that amount, but even a four person group that hangs out a lot is a whole lot different than three or two person groups. That is why skaters are so cool. They hang out in large groups consistently at skate parks and are spiritually aware because weed is popular. Yes, it is fucked up, the more drugged a nation is the worse off they are statistically. I can point you to what parts of the bible talk about it. I will post on this thread some stuff. Really I believe that the spirituality of humans was born in dmt drugs. The dmt shrooms pop up in the adam and eve paintings (the red spotted ones) and it is hypothesized that the indians worship cows because of the fact that the dmt shrooms grow in the shit.
Yea good thoughts, there was an instance where they took native americans and brought them to vietnam I think the do some tracking in the war, and when they got there, the indians couldn't do shit.
Turns out it was because they had their hair cut off.
Tried again with the hair and they it worked. Before I was fucked by forced psychiatry I had a feeling that we were the icarus generation, meaning we will fly too close to the sun and get fucked up.
As much as I want to say no, the illum stuff is important because they want to start and islam vs christian war and then offer peace via one world socialist government which will lead to their take over. Also they want to cut the population a ton with vaccines, diseases, war(clinton would've started one)
There's a quote about communism, great idea theoretically, wrong species. Works great with ants. There needs to be a balance of good and evil. Evil creates good. I have experienced this myself. An attempt get yourself into a dark place(not completely) mentally bring more power and vitality and creativeness. So while you are doing it you don't feel guilt because you know you are just maximizing your free and most powerful and connected ways of thinking. I have experienced this with music. If you are saying you are not competitive at all it makes me think you are a female. They are meant to be led by males and be emotional tampons for men. They deserve to be respected for taking the emotional development and sustainment of men into their own hands. We need each other but males are the ones who can survive on their own. See bear grylls feminist videos. There is evidence that humans have been getting high off dmy plants for the longest time (moses and the burning bush). I REALLY believe the emotional disconnect and inability for people to see the beauty in life comes from spiritual absense that we used to get from drugs. The war on drugs was meant to suppress the liberal vote. Reagan administration admitted that. Also it aids the prison idustrial compex and big pharma who knows that they would lose billions upon billion if natural remedies were permitted to be tested and distributed, SO CROOKED. Listen to graham hancock's jre comments on Ayahuasca. He said it teaches you about yourself and what you need to change. Maybe if you tried you would understand that capitalism is the least violent and most free way to go about life currently. The gov is constantly raiding foreign govs so they can cause havok. I do respect the viewpoint that the world is very cruel. I do wish I could live in hunter gather nomadic clan sometimes. People speak of weeklong hunting trips activating the primal comfort with the bare hard scrabble earth. Also fasting cleanses yourself very well. Try fasting 24hrs once every few weeks and also tre(only eat from 1-4pm). Another reason why they don't want us spiritaully aware via dmt drugs is because it would lead to us seeing through the govs bs a shitton more. Maybe it would lead to us seeing consumerism as an overblown bs route to happiness that widens the wealth gap when we spend too much on useless things that we are told and gods material in media. Truly maximizing yourself and focusing on mating with your prime mate can really get you into a primal happiness state where you through that lense see the cruel world as the most efficient means to an end with sooo many people needing goods to survive now. Best of luck. I think the least risky way to get dmt drugs is to buy nodes(or seeds or whatever) of the shrooms online because I think they are legal and then grow them. Again I understand that the world is too cruel sometimes, and maybe making sure your genes don't get passed down is optimal if these big challenges are too much for you.
It most likely will be jaded to seems bad so the one world socialist gov will look better by comparison
I would suggest being more selfish and dicky. Having a good mix and good and evil in you is important to healthy vibrancy and vitality. Also do the right health things.
Squidward
This is as brave as I know how to be...
- Apr 18, 2018
- 80
I'm sorry but this makes no sense to me. I think you like walls of text because it's harder for people to retort them. They hide all the contradictions and contentious traps you leave.
The first quote contradicts most of what you said here, including your entire original post. But the contrast between the second one exemplifies my point.
And to clarify, I'm not offended by the suggestion that depression doesn't technically exist. Nor do I think you lack responsibility for condemning coercive psychiatry. Both of those things fit well into my szaszian perspective of "mental health."
Im talking specifically about the "I could overcome any problem before" part. Unless we're talking about lobotomy or ECT, they didn't permanently disable you any more than the rest of your accused subjugators did.
I apologize in advance for being a bit hostile but to be quite honest I'm seeing a minefield of baited hooks here.. and my fatass couldn't help but take a nibble.
Sonnenblume
Sunflower Panda
- Apr 6, 2018
- 574
"The first quote contradicts most of what you said here, including your entire original post. But the contrast between the second one exemplifies my point." I don't know what you mean.
"Im talking specifically about the "I could overcome any problem before" part. Unless we're talking about lobotomy or ECT, they didn't permanently disable you any more than the rest of your accused subjugators did. "
Yes, I was very good at overcoming problems before. I had bad pain in my foot and it turned out it was fractured for years but still did did very athletic things. I got pretty good at approaching girls on the street and getting their number when before I felt a wall stopping me from doing it. I used to be skinny and then I worked out really hard for 6 months then years and I became proud of my physique(six pack). I used to have shit personality and I transformed it into a funny interesting guy by going into an under construction mode and reforming myself over years. I used to be beta as fuck and before all of this I was told I came across as alpha and I was masculine as fuck. I really was proud of my personality and sense of humor.
The damage from the drugging is real. I went home after getting the first dose. I started to feel panicked about being tossed out of the house or back in a psych ward when I used to never be fazed by the constant threat of that before. I started to feel my anchor to this world disintegrate. I then got in the shower the next night with my phone and watched some stuff and could not cum. Literally nothing came out. Looked into it, I had retrograde ejaculation where the jizz goes into your bladder.
I also could not feel orgasms anymore. I started to feel like a zombie. I started staring off into space. I started to writhing and squirm on the couch and say "I have to get this out of my boyd" I was scared to tel my parents I didn't want to continue taking it because they forced me to take it to come home. I started to panic because I felt like my body was going through a terrible change that would be permanent. I felt nothing.
I started researching permanent effects of the drug that was in me. Some have permanent effects, some feel a lot better, some forget what feeling normal was like so they just say they are happy with how they are currently because it is better now. I felt an extreme torture. No dopamine was allowed to be processed in my brain. Studies show permanent brain volume loss happens in monkey who take it. Mom calls dr who prescribed it to me.
She thought the halflife was about half as long as it really is. The half life is 49 days. Man got a plasma bloom test that shows it stay is system for over 300 days. I start putting names to how I'm feeling. Depersonalization(lost my personality), akathisia(severe discomfort and panic), metabolic disfunction(cannot feel hinger or use energy correctly anymore(leads to deteriorating muscles)), high prolactin and low testosterone.
I become worried that I have high cholesterol and als. Got the diabetes check and it was fine. I start to feel like my legs are dying when I sit. A certain deadness. I feel like I might be slowly going paralyzed because of the weakness and numb feeling. I start talking about wanting to die constantly to my parents. Somehow I avoid going back to psych ward. It has been since december and I feel a lot better with the akathisia, ability to orgasm, retrograde ejaculation, numbess is legs, tesosterone(got cabergoline prescription which lowers prolactin(causes male breast growth) and then testosterone). Personality is still gone.
Metabolism will never return. I just keep gaining fat. I have talked to other people who have no hunger years after anti-psyshitics. Forced psychiatry is torture and a human rights violation. It is contradictory to laws in US and UN. Also my brain just feels way different. It is a chemical lobotomy. These idiots don't even admit it causes permanent brain damage and permanent side effects.
