vexing spirit driving me to suicide

[tomame]

while i know some are hesitant to believe anyone that speaks on the supernatural— keep in mind, on this website, everyone is for the most part anonymous. and i'd gain absolutely nothing, lying about this

there has been a physical spirit attached to my body for the past two years. it's drove me to attempt suicide twice already. it's so dreadful as i have no one to be able to talk to about this or relate to on it. it's driven me to self isolation, self loathing, job loss, and more bitter by the day. i'm afraid it will even drive me to homelessness .. sooner than later.

my most recent creativity has been posting ads on various forums seeking someone to kill me.

i had a dream of Hell shortly after my last attempt, so sold the gun i bought.

i have confidence, finding someone else to kill me would ... perhaps avoid that Hell. and frankly, i'm willing to take the risk if it doesn't.

i wouldn't wish this experience on my worst enemy. it is bringing me down more and more by the day and all i can do is watch.

 

[IAmElation]

I'm so sorry you feel like this. I'm very spiritual and believe in mmmoost supernatural things, but I've never heard of something like this.
Not to say you're lying, it's just interesting wording! It sounds absolutely horrible.
I hope you get this weight off of your back (pun not intended…), and find peace soon, however that may manifest for you

 

[ipmanwc0]

I thought you were @ghosted1 for a second bc they said the same thing

 

[tomame]

I thought you were @ghosted1 for a second bc they said the same thing

i found a comment of there's where it seems we may have similar experiences! while i wouldn't wish this on anyone, i went ahead and messaged them. ty