Very tempted to try hanging myself when my husband is asleep tonight.

[SHThrowAway213]

It is currently 10 pm.
He usually falls asleep around 11-12.
I don't think I can wait any longer, I really can't.
I wouldnt usually risk it but I'm too desperate.
I know I will have the house to my self soon, but I'm not sure if I can wait that long either.
I know I'm supposed to be meeting partners to go to Beachy Head on Monday, if I can think of an excuse for my husband. (If you are reading this, I'm very sorry but I hope I can wait until Monday, but I'm not sure if I can. My hanging attempts never work anyway)
Urges are getting too strong to ignore

 

[Kikoo Loool]

Sounds like a very risky idea and you'll fuck him up forever when he founds you

 

[Taraxias]

I have heard that will hanging begins safucating you your body starts making spasms and differend noises which will wake up your husband .you need to be not found for at least 30 minutes. Wish i had a beachy head option in my city.how many meters is it? You fall in water?

 

[Alec]

Nothing but hugs and love to you. Whatever you choose I love you and respect your choice. But do consider everything, if you can, if you have it in you maybe it's best to wait to make sure you are not found. But it is your choice and your decision and all I can do is respect it which I do. Maybe just try to concentrate on the breathing, one breath in at a time and one breath out, don't think about the next breath just think about the one you are doing at the moment, maybe that will help you enough to wait a bit longer? I don't know, that's what I'm trying to do, just breathing, it fucking hurts. I love you!

Love,
—Alec.

 

[Living sucks]

My husband.
He's my rock and very supportive towards me.
He's already said he would kill himself if I did it.

You have support. Lean on him and exhaust all efforts.
you post a lot about attempts, if that helps you manage then keep talking here.
i wish you didn't have to feel this way

 

[SHThrowAway213]

I have heard that will hanging begins safucating you your body starts making spasms and differend noises which will wake up your husband .you need to be not found for at least 30 minutes. Wish i had a beachy head option in my city.how many meters is it? You fall in water?

Its 160 metres and I think you do fall in water

You have support. Lean on him and exhaust all efforts.
you post a lot about attempts, if that helps you manage then keep talking here.
i wish you didn't have to feel this way

I don't want to stress him out too much, and it does help here
I have exhausted all my options, I'm just done

 

[Taraxias]

Its 160 metres and I think you do fall in water

I don't want to stress him out too much, and it does help here
I have exhausted all my options, I'm just done

Well how did it end up? Did you just sleep and try to relax ?

 

[SHThrowAway213]

Well how did it end up? Did you just sleep and try to relax ?

He is still awake but very tired

 

[Brackenshire]

Would you care to talk

 

[SHThrowAway213]

Would you care to talk

Sure

 

[Taraxias]

There is a new thread just now that says that a guy jumped from beachy head and survived

 

[Brackenshire]

Sure

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