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lonerclown666

Mage
Dec 1, 2020
540
Its kinda hard to buy a gun legally if you not in the US you need to have a lot of requirements to be approved they are so expensive and its hard to hide from your parents i truly want CTB with a Gun its disappointing how hard its to get a gun in some countrys
 
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SuicidallyCurious

Enlightened
Dec 20, 2020
1,715
On the other hand we have a lot of trauma in USA that probably increases the CTB rate due to the fact guns cause so much chaos in our society

I used to be strongly pro 2A because most of my life I was a teetotaler and responsible . I expected everyone to be a model citizen . It's just too unrealistic in USA - that country is so dysgenic and chaotic
 
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brnggundottxt

Member
Mar 12, 2022
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I live in a similar situation but I live in such a shithole that if you ask a few people you might some rusty old shit to buy. Dudes even rent guns here.

The only time I thought to actually buy one from this dude he not only refused to sell me it he told the entire country that I asked to buy it. Apparently he was convinced that I was gonna shoot one of these assholes when I wouldn't waste a bullet on any of those bums.
So yeah they're highly illegal, and carry some heavy sentencing for possession. Some fool could just lead me to a narc. I am not going to jail. It's suicide by cop for me. They literally can't fight, will openly beg for bribes and in some cases would just steal your weed instead arresting you. The most jaded and unreadably rancid of characters in this country always somehow find a way to morally grandstand like they're doing some moral service.

I was thinking of ODing but it's 1000% easer to just get a gun than to find and execute a suicide with hard drugs. I was thinking to start asking around soon.
 
CandyCane

CandyCane

Student
Mar 11, 2022
143
I have a gun, but I can't imagine actually shooting myself on purpose. It feels too scary. I've tried to be that way.
 
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AnestheticVoid

❤️ Dissociatives ❤️
Feb 17, 2022
273
I had a 9mm handgun (which I lost access to later for 3 years due to criminal charges). When I was heavily into ketamine I would "play" with it. Putting it up to my head, in my mouth, just walking around my apartment with it. I'd put A-Zoom rounds in and and pull the trigger with it on myself. I wasn't consciously suicidal when I was doing this.

Once when I was doing a lot of ketamine I actually fired a live round into the floor. Went right by leg thru the coffee table into the floor. I don't remember anything until the round went off. I started panicking. Flushed all my drugs and called my mom because I was scared that the round went into another person's apartment thinking I might have killed someone. Luckily there wasn't an apartment below me. Cops weren't even called. Probably the most scared I've ever been.

Didn't fully realize until I went to treatment and talked to the psychologist that I was showing signs of suicidality.

Honestly wish i died that night.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,317
To me, the gun method sounds like a horrible way to go. If I ever had access to it, I would never be able to ctb that way. I would be scared of it going wrong. I want a peaceful death, like falling asleep and never waking up.
 

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