very close to pulling the trigger on SN

[searchingforpeace]

I've had mental illness for 30 years of physical disability for eight years I've done everything I could to try to help myself it's obvious it's not going to get better. I despise this life more than anyone could possibly imagine.

I have both IC and CC sn.
I would fast for 6 or 8 hours take Zyprexa ativan inderal
I would use a plastic cup plastic 5 gram scoopers for 5 scoops I think I would be sitting on the floor while I did it so I don't hit my head in case I survived I hope to stick my middle finger up in life as my last act

 

[Scattered-Soul]

I get you about having tried everything in your power to get better and deal with your circumstances but it all being in vain in the end, realizing that you've got nowhere to go but towards CTB. At the very least, you know you tried, and I don't think people can blame you for "not giving yourself a chance". I feel pretty upset with life as well. I wish you luck with your plans.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really sounds like you've suffered so much, it's horrible how people have to suffer so much in this existence. But anyway I wish you the best.