Allisonblue
New Member
- Sep 17, 2023
- 1
I just want to die. I just want to give up. I just want to go away I just want to disappear and I don't want anyone to follow me. I wish that it will all end and I hope it does. It isn't worth breathing, it isn't worth living. I don't want to wake up anymore I wish that I could be alone and that I could sleep forever in the dark. And we all know that the only way to do this is by catching the bus, but I'm too scared, I am a fucking coward and I still deserve to die, and I need help dying. I wish I could just go in my sleep and I wish I could just be the unlucky person on the news that gets slaughtered in their peaceful slumber. At least it's me instead of them, because at least I deserve it. I'm a coward. I'm a coward! I want to go but I can't. I keep on hitting myself when no one's around telling myself that I'm just scared. Telling myself that if I do it I would feel so much better, because it's better not to feel anything than feel only hurt. I want it to be quick and painless, once or twice to the head, maybe with anesthesia before. I don't need help to recover but help to die.