Simba
Missunderstood Potato
- Dec 9, 2018
- 750
Not sure where to post this so I'll post here. I finally got an earlier appointment to this psychiatrist for this Friday. I don't know if im worried if she could possibly dismiss what im feeling/etc ... I just feel like most if not 90% of what i feel and act is literally inside , meaning that probably won't see it outside and like idk.. like ,when i have stuff that are considered good stuff and like go really well and until something happens could be something minor or something incredibly insignificant or should be insignificant or whatever or could be just something someone says/said then like whole mood can drop n stuff or i can like think too much of situations idk something good n later my mind's like uhhhhhhh n just thinkin bad stuff that could happen when there's no reason for any of it.. then theres time i could feel bit discontected from everything or like from feeling ,even right now.. like i understand sad feelings n stuff but now i just feel bit discontected from those feelings for some reason idk why.. i just dont want to go there and she'll see on the outside an 'ok' person or whatever and either
a. dismiss me
b. will say is just a phase or whatever OR
c. write false info on paper n what not..
im also for some reasons get scared when people leave idk or just think unnecessary thoughts like "block me" or like mind will be like "kill me" "i don't deserve this(something good)" etc ,i watch too many mental health documentaries so like idk ,i also at times doubt myself and my every thought n what not n like think "what if im a fraud ?" n what not.. idk if anyone here has any insight or idk im like detatched or whatever from feelings n stuff idk
Oh forgot to mention ,i don't know if this is all the time but i once some days ago sent a picture of my eyes i think on a group chat but after that i realised my nose was in it and looked really big so deleted photo in group.
Thanks ,From Simba
a. dismiss me
b. will say is just a phase or whatever OR
c. write false info on paper n what not..
im also for some reasons get scared when people leave idk or just think unnecessary thoughts like "block me" or like mind will be like "kill me" "i don't deserve this(something good)" etc ,i watch too many mental health documentaries so like idk ,i also at times doubt myself and my every thought n what not n like think "what if im a fraud ?" n what not.. idk if anyone here has any insight or idk im like detatched or whatever from feelings n stuff idk
Oh forgot to mention ,i don't know if this is all the time but i once some days ago sent a picture of my eyes i think on a group chat but after that i realised my nose was in it and looked really big so deleted photo in group.
Thanks ,From Simba