Venting crying

[darkenmydoorstep]

I just hate living with my son and his dad.
But my son is 12 so I can't leave yet.
Another day of having my face spat into by my son. He's thrown a chair across the room and a shaver. His dad amps it up because he then gets cross. There's a big dint in the wall.
Son is 12 but same height and shoe size and soon he'll be bigger, stronger….
I just want to leave but I'm his mum.
This is why I have to die. Life is just hell and I have to stay til he's 18 or 16 at the earliest. Maybe then I could leave him with his dad.
Why did I do it? Have a child. Why did I think it would be a nice thing to do?
It's just hell.

 

[Olisop21.]

I'm sorry for your pain and suffering.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Sounds like a conundrum to be in and must hurt to be mistreated by your son and hard to deal with I remember the programs that sometimes show up about out of control kids that are even violent it must be so hard to deal with

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

He's autistic and struggles - is at a school for kids with behavioural difficulties.
I just find it so damn hard. He just spat in his dad's meal as he was eating so then dad starts hitting the fridge in frustration. I just want out so, so bad.

I'm sorry for your pain and suffering.

Thank you for listening