NSFW venting abt impulses

[dundunch1cken]

this is really weird but i kinda need advice on how to not be so impulsive, cuz i might not CTB and if i don't, the consequences (may) be kinda bad…
// mentions of s*x, dr*gs

like i have a boyfriend right now and he is the sweetest person ever and i'm eternally grateful for him but i can't help but think about having s** with him or breaking up with him so i can have s** with other people and my sex drive is high on w**d and i still have a fwb that i met up with recently (we didn't do anything! but i was so dumb i was thinking about it the whole time)
like how do i stop thinking this way?? just this urge to leave the one thing keeping me stable and start ruining my life like that? i can't just say i'm super h**ny and leave it at that because i feel crazier than just h**ny

and not to mention i've already been spending so much money that i'm almost going into the money i basically stole from my parents… i swore to give that money back no matter what but i just justify spending more by saying "i'm gonna CTB anyways, might as well enjoy life" and i feel so guilty spending money but i do want to enjoy my last moments, if i choose to end it soon.

i actually have no idea what i'll do in the near future. there's way too many emotions to figure out what i want. i guess we'll just see until my sn gets delivered.

 

[sodalover]

even if this isn't optimal, i suggest bringing up your sex drive to him. obviously not detailing that meetup or anything, but just explaining you have a high sex drive. if he's really the sweet person you describe i'm sure he'd understand your explaining

 

[UnnervedCompany]

A good way to deal with impulsiveness is doing something that is both rewarding, exhausting and forces you to be outside. A hobby or routine that demands you to be outdoors doing an onerous task such as hiking or going to the gym will help with the want for sex and drugs. Being sedentary no matter what you are doing will just cause a buildup of your urges.

What is wrong with having sex with your boyfriend? Just fuck like rabbits, no one outside your relationship will care.

Also it seems you are unsure of CTBing so what is the point of the sn if you haven't even made up your mind.