disgustingtrash
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- May 19, 2023
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I'm feeling rlly lonely now, a lot of you are probably feeling the same rn so just vent . Doesn't matter what it is about
I'm not gonna say what happened to me but the effects of it I think around 3 years ago I was fully depressed stayed in my room for months without leaving cryed myself to sleep everyday but that was when I kinda changed my anxiety went up like crazy so around more than a year ago I went insane I had voices in my head telling me to kill myself but one of them stood out and is still here today I tryed slitting my throat but it look like I just self harm mutilple times so I had to hide it I try drowning myself in the bathtub but that failed at this time nothing felt real but one day I decided to take pills after I finish this one game which I didn't finish and I decided to not kill myself but nothing felt real after that after that a couple weeks ago from today I thought I can save these people but now that voice came back and reminded me everything and I'm suicidal again. What the fuck my heart beating while typing and I never told this to anyone and probably delete it in the next 10 minutesI'm feeling rlly lonely now, a lot of you are probably feeling the same rn so just vent . Doesn't matter what it is about
You say nothing feels real. Are you suffering from depersonalisation and derealization ?I'm not gonna say what happened to me but the effects of it I think around 3 years ago I was fully depressed stayed in my room for months without leaving cryed myself to sleep everyday but that was when I kinda changed my anxiety went up like crazy so around more than a year ago I went insane I had voices in my head telling me to kill myself but one of them stood out and is still here today I tryed slitting my throat but it look like I just self harm mutilple times so I had to hide it I try drowning myself in the bathtub but that failed at this time nothing felt real but one day I decided to take pills after I finish this one game which I didn't finish and I decided to not kill myself but nothing felt real after that after that a couple weeks ago from today I thought I can save these people but now that voice came back and reminded me everything and I'm suicidal again. What the fuck my heart beating while typing and I never told this to anyone and probably delete it in the next 10 minutes
I think I was suffering from it probably because of the voices and weed but I not suffering from it not anymore my suicidal thoughts just came back two days agoY
You say nothing feels real. Are you suffering from depersonalisation and derealization ?
So sorry you are suffering.
do you suffer from schizophrenia or derealization? I suffer from derealization and some of the things u listed are similar, but yours is definitely more extreme. U should speak to a therapist so you can get diagnosed. don't tell them too much tho, they might send u to a mental hospitalI'm not gonna say what happened to me but the effects of it I think around 3 years ago I was fully depressed stayed in my room for months without leaving cryed myself to sleep everyday but that was when I kinda changed my anxiety went up like crazy so around more than a year ago I went insane I had voices in my head telling me to kill myself but one of them stood out and is still here today I tryed slitting my throat but it look like I just self harm mutilple times so I had to hide it I try drowning myself in the bathtub but that failed at this time nothing felt real but one day I decided to take pills after I finish this one game which I didn't finish and I decided to not kill myself but nothing felt real after that after that a couple weeks ago from today I thought I can save these people but now that voice came back and reminded me everything and I'm suicidal again. What the fuck my heart beating while typing and I never told this to anyone and probably delete it in the next 10 minutes
Unrequited love is a harrowing experience.i'm getting attatched to a person again that i know doesn't love me and never will, i know it's gonna destroy me but right now everything is okay with him
i'm looking for a job but got nothing but rejections until now, i'll probably end up dead in a ditch somewhere soon, i've given up on life again i guess
It is something so frustrating looking up to a person and being rejected. I found my soulmate some months ago but she didn't correspond to my love, it is so saddening finding someone so similiar to you but her feelings is towards another man. I really wish for her happiness above all else and if she thinks he is the best she can have then she should go for it. I feel so much underapreciated for what I go throught, most people don't really undestand me but she is really a kindred spirit. But the destiny has keep her from my grasp and I'm damned to forever mourn the loss of her love. So frustrating that my immense love cannot be corresponded and acknowledged, I will keep loinging for a love that can match my expections bu5 ii'm getting attatched to a person again that i know doesn't love me and never will, i know it's gonna destroy me but right now everything is okay with him
i'm looking for a job but got nothing but rejections until now, i'll probably end up dead in a ditch somewhere soon, i've given up on life again i guess
Same here: no real human connections ever. and a huge void in life in general.I know this will probably be buried and unseen, but:
It's really not so much of shit on my plate, but the lack thereof; I grew up not wealthy, but certainly not poor. I never had a girlfriend, never a solid, important job, few friends (and only one good one, the rest were/are terrible people), never had any significant or long lasting hobbies other than videogames, etc. I feel like I've been given the world, sufficiently more than most, and yet, I'm left feeling dissatisfied and disgruntled. I've not made any meaningful impact on any person, nevermind the world! And now, with the pressure of eventually having to move out and be self sufficient in this shit hole of a world, I'm left wondering: what the fuck was even the point? So many years, supposedly the best years, just... Hollow? Filled with memes and videogames and junk food and vapes to make me feel cool? I don't have connections, i don't have money, and i don't really have any plans for the future. I know this might seem pretty pathetic, but knowing that makes it feel all the worse. Calvin out