vent/my life is good

[girlsboysthems]

my life is good, i have an okay job, I attend an okay college, i have a nice therapist, i have a lovely cat and some nice friends. yet, i still hate waking up every morning and going to said job and said college. I tried everything I possibly could to make the suicidal thoughts stop but it just doesn't work. You might be thinking "well, you said an okay job and college what if it was better would you finally be happy?" the answer is no. im not depressed, i was just always low and uninterested in living. I think this is a question of philosophical nature and not a pathology like modern psychiatry claims., but even if i tell this to psych/therapist it just doesnt help because there is nothing they can do for me (example: they cant euthanise me, but they cant help me either). kinda stuck in a purgatory. just a little vent. if anyone has any suggestions, im open to them.

 

[looseye]

Same here. I have all the things I could currently wish for but still hate being here. There is absolutely no fucking reason to feel like this but oh well... It's the same old shit. Starting to wonder if there is some suicide gene

 

[FuneralCry]

I've never understood the whole appeal of existing personally and I know that I could never want to stay here under any circumstances, so your feelings certainly are understandable. I know that in my case I'm not meant to be here.

 

[killmenow99]

i understand how you feel. only difference is that these day's i stopped attending my classes, even though i was doing pretty well academically last semester. from an outsider's view my life should be pretty good, and i don't even have to work hard to get what i want but i don't want to do anything anymore.

 

[Veronica Sawyer]

I've had similar experiences. It's almost like everything in life is just unsatisfying. I got a good job that pays well and doesn't overwork me, and I still find myself disliking it and wanting to just quit all the time. I have a good partner who is nice and caring, and yet I think about leaving them because I just don't feel happy most of the time. I barely do anything anymore because all of the things I used to love just don't bring me the joy that they used to. Living a life with this sort of apathy towards everything just becomes painful after enough time.