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Buh-bye!
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- Jan 10, 2024
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i don't like socializing at all now. i have been with my own self for months now and i have tried every effort i could make to make people dissapear from my real life. as in me being away from them. i know they hurt and i know they
re more trouble than good but the main reason is somewhat the pleasure i get by being alone for a time so long that i then start to believe there are no humans outside of my world. i feel good in that little sphere and i know it's bad to do something like that if you want to live but sine i want to die it doesn't really matter. albeit i also don't want people to disappear as long as i am alive since i want them to exist but just not be able to be around me ( too often ). i think i want them to value me when i go away for too long ? i am a sucker for attention i know that so maybe that's the thing.
now nothing i said i mean in an evil manner, neither in one that anyhow hurts someone. i often find myself being very apathetic but this isn't true because i know i can be empathetic. i just i am glad no one judges me here or at the very least even if they do they understand. love the place love the people wish i could provide you'all with a magical wish of anything you want somehow while having one for me too
wants and needs both are to be considered
re more trouble than good but the main reason is somewhat the pleasure i get by being alone for a time so long that i then start to believe there are no humans outside of my world. i feel good in that little sphere and i know it's bad to do something like that if you want to live but sine i want to die it doesn't really matter. albeit i also don't want people to disappear as long as i am alive since i want them to exist but just not be able to be around me ( too often ). i think i want them to value me when i go away for too long ? i am a sucker for attention i know that so maybe that's the thing.
now nothing i said i mean in an evil manner, neither in one that anyhow hurts someone. i often find myself being very apathetic but this isn't true because i know i can be empathetic. i just i am glad no one judges me here or at the very least even if they do they understand. love the place love the people wish i could provide you'all with a magical wish of anything you want somehow while having one for me too
wants and needs both are to be considered