RyleIsRiledUp
C'est la vie :0
- Jan 16, 2026
- 14
Man, im so tired rn. I slept at 5 am. i stayed up all night for no reason. I've lost my "Stay calm and take it easy" streak. I feel guilty abt giving others the advice to relax and take it slow even though i couldnt do it myself. i'm so sleep deprived rn. im hving memory fog. i dun remember most easy to remember things. i dun remember eating dinner, or going to sleep day before yesterday. I dun remember what all i really did yesterday. Ik studying rn wont help me at all. But i seriously dunno anything frm my econ syllabus. I'd end up crying if i give my exam in this state.
I dun wanna drink energy drinks or coffee rn cuz sleep deprivation + caffeine just makes you jitter. like your brain is sleeping but heart is running a mile a second. I kinda regret it. No no, I completely regret it. i dunno mannn... I kinda am start to see shyt. while staring at the ceiling last night, i saw silver-ish confetti things floating around. that's a sign of severe SD. I kinda am panicking internally. I tried to call my dad to talk it out with him (my therapist also told me to be open with one of my parents because i've kinda closed myself off recently and stopped talking abt my worst of issues all together). My dad din pick up. He's prolly busy rn.
Time is ticking and each second makes me more sleep and anxious. I kinda am hoping for a crash so that i can skip the exam. but that's not th eright mindset. im gonna talk it out with my parents, though it scares me. not them, but opening up scares me. so yea, im here cuz im anon so i dun hv to worry much (i still worry. i think 100000 times before making a post here myself). Idk my post not getting any responses oddly makes me feel lonlier but it's okei ig. I can manage it, right?? sorry if that sounded accusatory. I din mean it
I fr cant feel my body rnn. i hv to constantly move to feel it's real. so yea yea yea... I wanna sleep, my body is like "BITCH GO TO SLEEP. WE'RE TIRED OF OVERTIME." but my brain is anxious af. i'm so so so tired mannn...
What should I do? Kinda need help here....
I'm sorry if im a bother tho...
thx gng<3
I dun wanna drink energy drinks or coffee rn cuz sleep deprivation + caffeine just makes you jitter. like your brain is sleeping but heart is running a mile a second. I kinda regret it. No no, I completely regret it. i dunno mannn... I kinda am start to see shyt. while staring at the ceiling last night, i saw silver-ish confetti things floating around. that's a sign of severe SD. I kinda am panicking internally. I tried to call my dad to talk it out with him (my therapist also told me to be open with one of my parents because i've kinda closed myself off recently and stopped talking abt my worst of issues all together). My dad din pick up. He's prolly busy rn.
Time is ticking and each second makes me more sleep and anxious. I kinda am hoping for a crash so that i can skip the exam. but that's not th eright mindset. im gonna talk it out with my parents, though it scares me. not them, but opening up scares me. so yea, im here cuz im anon so i dun hv to worry much (i still worry. i think 100000 times before making a post here myself). Idk my post not getting any responses oddly makes me feel lonlier but it's okei ig. I can manage it, right?? sorry if that sounded accusatory. I din mean it
I fr cant feel my body rnn. i hv to constantly move to feel it's real. so yea yea yea... I wanna sleep, my body is like "BITCH GO TO SLEEP. WE'RE TIRED OF OVERTIME." but my brain is anxious af. i'm so so so tired mannn...
What should I do? Kinda need help here....
I'm sorry if im a bother tho...
thx gng<3
